Soaking Up Time
So yeah. It's Saturday and I'm bored so I'll update. Not much has happened really. It's just been kind of mellow. Well actually, that damn counselor is getting on my nerves. Always on my case. But I guess I should be grateful, she could get me in trouble for alot of things but doesn't. But she still gets on my nerves.
Anyways let's jump to the topic of friends. Me and Darrell have been talkin alot on the phone lately. I mean that's not exactly unusual but I mean for a while now the phone calls have only been every once in a while. Once or Twice a month or so. B ut lately it has been every night. I'm not sure but I'm thinking he's like trying to soak it all up before it's over. Well not over ... but basically in 2 weeks or so ... it's going to be different and it won't ever be the same. I know it and he knows it. He kind of seems sad and lonely actually. And it's weird cause I can't really be there for him. And I always felt bad because like 3 years ago or so he came by my house (it wasn't close like it is now) and told me he was sad and that he wanted me to come and spend the night and hang with him. For some reason I didn't want to and I told him that and then I was like I'll call you though. I didn't call him. About 2am I get a phone call from his mom saying he tried to hurt himself and they had sent him to a mental hospital. I always regreted not going with him that night. I dunno what that has to do with anything, I'm rambling. But yeah, he seems sad ... I guess I'm not as sad cause I've seen it coming and I think he is just now seeing it. I'm going to miss how it was, but life goes on. Anyways, ... another friend rant now. That friend that was angry with me or whatever, well yeah obviously she isn't mad now. And I thought things were back to normal and I was thrilled. But I think I was wrong. It honestly feels weird now and it sucks. I miss what it was and how it was. Oh well.
Anyways enough of that. I'm tired. Though I don't know why. I slept 12 hours today. Hah! Anyways, I'm out!
Anyways let's jump to the topic of friends. Me and Darrell have been talkin alot on the phone lately. I mean that's not exactly unusual but I mean for a while now the phone calls have only been every once in a while. Once or Twice a month or so. B ut lately it has been every night. I'm not sure but I'm thinking he's like trying to soak it all up before it's over. Well not over ... but basically in 2 weeks or so ... it's going to be different and it won't ever be the same. I know it and he knows it. He kind of seems sad and lonely actually. And it's weird cause I can't really be there for him. And I always felt bad because like 3 years ago or so he came by my house (it wasn't close like it is now) and told me he was sad and that he wanted me to come and spend the night and hang with him. For some reason I didn't want to and I told him that and then I was like I'll call you though. I didn't call him. About 2am I get a phone call from his mom saying he tried to hurt himself and they had sent him to a mental hospital. I always regreted not going with him that night. I dunno what that has to do with anything, I'm rambling. But yeah, he seems sad ... I guess I'm not as sad cause I've seen it coming and I think he is just now seeing it. I'm going to miss how it was, but life goes on. Anyways, ... another friend rant now. That friend that was angry with me or whatever, well yeah obviously she isn't mad now. And I thought things were back to normal and I was thrilled. But I think I was wrong. It honestly feels weird now and it sucks. I miss what it was and how it was. Oh well.
Anyways enough of that. I'm tired. Though I don't know why. I slept 12 hours today. Hah! Anyways, I'm out!