I don't know what's happening to me anymore ...

[bad_day_magnet]

Wow ... I've been having a rough time lately. The last time I posted ... was the night things started to get bad. I guess I just got set off ... for whatever reason. But yeah ... I guess I just snapped that night and tried to do something bad ... but I guess God didn't like the idea too much. Anyways things have been downward from there. I tried to get written up the next day, left class like 5 times, jumped on a library table and meditated ... but nothing. Skipped 4th block and everything. And today I skipped a good part of 3rd and a little of 4th and Fincher caught me both times ... but nothing happened. I guess they have given up and don't have the energy to deal with me anymore. I dunno why but that's kinda bleh ... and I guess I've lost in interest in a good chunk of my friends ... mostly because alot of them like talking about my busines with each other. Bleh whatever.

I'm more moody lately too. I'm either snapping on everyone or not talking to them period ... out of anger or saddness. And I'm alot more violent ... it scares me actually. I lose my temper too easily ... and I snap and go crazy ... either on myself or on others. Never been scared of my temper before really or whatever but ... it kind of scares me now. I don't know ... I'm just rambling. I'm either apathetic or violent/pissed off ... my two only emotions it seems ... It worries me ... After all, I am my own worst enemy.