Float On
I've been in the midst of a lot of confusion. There are a lot of options in the air and it is so difficult to make a decision. I had been really stressed and sad about it. I even got a stress headache the other day and that hardly ever happens. Then last night Candie told me some really nice and caring things about how much she believed in me and my abilities. Instead of refuting the compliments and finding evidence for why they weren't true, I let them sink in and I feel better. She has this way of making a big difference in how I feel. A talk with my dad was also helpful as he brought in the dose of reality, but even then, Candie still emphasized her belief that I could strive regardless. I feel calmer and grateful for her as well. It may just be that I should work and take more time to figure out where I really want to go and what I really want to do. There is an advantage to not doing that way, too, i'm sure, but at this point I don't think anything is a bad decision. I know I will always be welcome at CHS (soon to be the michigan school of professional psychology) so that I will always be able to finish my doctorate. Well, I hope I don't get the attitude of "I will always be able to" and never do, but some time off could be helpful. Is this my decision? Maybe.