it never rains it pours
home alone all day. no note where my family is, no car to get anywhere to sustain my life, just home alone. weightroom was closed, so no lifting. no car to get to the saw mill so no lifting. run ten miles, come home, shower, lie down and relax, fall into your own world for a while. let things turn over in your head. get ready to write a song maybe. mom comes home. groceries. dumb sister can't take any, neither of them even think about making two trips. go to the garage to get one thing. speech about jobs. irony. you cant get a job for six months while you want one. now its too late, but the mother is angry that you dont have one and cant find one. more irony. you're broke. owe her money. can't pay because the mother wouldn't let you get a job. speech about pasta. you used it wrong. irony again. all the food is always over offered to anyone. make pasta because of the money situation. get a speech. double irony. go towards room. towards peace. towards that song a-brewin' inside. sister yells. how little you did today. an assumption made by her. an incorrect one. feel the thoroughness of your apathy to everything now. so angry for just a moment. let it pass. go to the room. lie down. in peace. write that song. descened into that place. look around. see the theatre. empty. sad. look at the movie in front of you. happy. blissfull. think. look. think. look. wonder. descened furthur. look. think. wonder. ask. how much longer. when does it end. how does it end. descend further. look. think. wonder. answer.
die.
die.