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Its funny how day to day nothing changed but when you look back everything is different.
i rememeber being scarred to grow up but never knowing why exactly. maybe it was the unknown im still not sure. All i do know is that it hurts way more than it probably should.
I want to be back on stable ground. not feel like im falling and no one will catch me. Not being angry over nothing anymore. hiding how i feel becuase im too scarred to mess this up. But i know i have to be good for myself before i can be good for you. So i guess ill start with that one thing at a time.
Im stressed and very lazy. i have so much shit to do and no motivation to do it. i need to work on that. im amazed i get up and go to work when i have to or class which i didnt go to last week im going this week then going out of town and not going for liek 2 weeks so yay for make up work. which i know i wont do while im gone.
im scarred to see sam again. saying bye once was hard enough but doing it again is going to be hard. growing up is hard and stressful. Its a love hate relationship
i rememeber being scarred to grow up but never knowing why exactly. maybe it was the unknown im still not sure. All i do know is that it hurts way more than it probably should.
I want to be back on stable ground. not feel like im falling and no one will catch me. Not being angry over nothing anymore. hiding how i feel becuase im too scarred to mess this up. But i know i have to be good for myself before i can be good for you. So i guess ill start with that one thing at a time.
Im stressed and very lazy. i have so much shit to do and no motivation to do it. i need to work on that. im amazed i get up and go to work when i have to or class which i didnt go to last week im going this week then going out of town and not going for liek 2 weeks so yay for make up work. which i know i wont do while im gone.
im scarred to see sam again. saying bye once was hard enough but doing it again is going to be hard. growing up is hard and stressful. Its a love hate relationship