everything happens for a reason
i think all along i knew it wasn't right. of course i can say that now that it's over, but really, there was always something missing. it was that thing that you can't even describe. on paper, it all seemed to make perfect sense, almost like he was made to be my boyfriend. really, the full package. i'm still not really sure what happened, i don't know if it was the timing, or if things just weren't meant to work out. almost two months into it, and we still didn't have it just right yet. things still seemed a little off, there was just never the time. i don't know if we just didn't make the time, or made it harder than it had to be. it did feel like we were just trying to force something, maybe nothing was really even there. i still don't really know what happened. but it's over, it was short-lived, and almost didn't really even feel like it happened. i don't know what to really make of it, or if we'll get back together or not, but for now i am single. and i think i want to be single for a while now. this time i'm serious. i don't want to settle, i want to feel that feeling, and if i don't, i'm not gonna waste too much time. it's really about me now. now i'm kathleen. not kathleen and ___, but just kathleen. i think i like that, i think i like it a lot.
in other news, since i never write in here, i have decided to study abroad this summer. i still have to finish the application, and hopefully the program will not fill up before i do. but i have applied for a passport, so that's good. the trip is may 15- june 1. we start in dublin, ireland, then go to edinburgh, scotland. after that we will go to london, england, then to paris, france, and two other cities in france i think. i am really excited, and hope that everything goes through and that i go for sure.
another thing is that i am officially living with jamie jones and rachel smart next year. well in the fall actually. that should be fun, this may be a long summer too. being home is always weird. this spring break was kind of crappy, nothing too exciting. but at least i was out of school for a while. i don't really think i made the most of it, but i did get some things accomplished.
in other news, since i never write in here, i have decided to study abroad this summer. i still have to finish the application, and hopefully the program will not fill up before i do. but i have applied for a passport, so that's good. the trip is may 15- june 1. we start in dublin, ireland, then go to edinburgh, scotland. after that we will go to london, england, then to paris, france, and two other cities in france i think. i am really excited, and hope that everything goes through and that i go for sure.
another thing is that i am officially living with jamie jones and rachel smart next year. well in the fall actually. that should be fun, this may be a long summer too. being home is always weird. this spring break was kind of crappy, nothing too exciting. but at least i was out of school for a while. i don't really think i made the most of it, but i did get some things accomplished.