the whirlwind we call life.
i meant to update, honest. i just got caught up in so many things and it's all been so busy. this is actually a spare moment right now in waiting to go somewhere.
apologizes about the ever changing bg. it's just the link to the picture in my msn profile because photobucket was being uncooperative the day i wanted to make this actually look good. oh well, i'm pretty sure no one reads this.
it's going to be impossible to make any of this make sense, but i will do my best. so tuesday was rent a date, as a publicity stunt for semi. now, me being football manager and all, i asked a bunch of the cute boys from the team to do it. now, the only one out of the bunch that i asked that's actually single is jonny. so he asked me to buy him because he didnt think anyone else would.... but a little while after i realized i actually did want to buy him, and it was too late to ask him to not do it, so i out bid another girl and bought him. so then i am presented with a dilemma. do i tell him, or hope the school girl crush will pass? no answer yet. thursday rolls around and i've done the unthinkable. injured my back from skating, and the pain is next to unbearable, so im taking large amounts of painkillers, and not in the best of moods. then im frantically running around with austin & mike trying to get everything bought, and we're just about leaving and i see him. so i obviously run over and hug him and talk to him and whatnot, then catch up with the boys. it was fun doing all the shopping. so after all the stressing is done, my mom comes to get me after school and i go to the mall and get my makeup done at lâncome... at this point i'm cutting it pretty damn close, so we rush home and i get dressed then rush out again. i see everyone and everything is getting done, and jonny still isn't there. i was a little disappointed, but adrian said he was in traffic and i figured i had to work anyhow so the distraction not being there was a blessing in disguise.
afterwards it's started and im serving food, and the table with all his friends is called up. i saw him and got this rush. he looked so good. i dont know what his reaction was when he saw me. so when he got to me, he said he'd come back and find me after... so he did and he walked around with me while i was transporting dessert from the food room to the caf. he was genuinely concerned about my back and it was the cutest thing ever. then he told me to go and eat and take another painkiller, so i did. when he came back, we talked for a bit and i had to clean so i gave him a few hugs and then he went off again. when i was done i went to the dance and found him. i danced with nikki watt for awhile, nichole, jenna, & tash. then a slow song came on so i went and found him. then we danced to a song.. i couldnt even tell you which one, i dont rememeber. then after awhile, a rock song came on and we went and got our picture taken as to escape it. then another slow song. at the last song, i told him. I CANT BELEIVE HE DIDNT KNOW. he's so stupid. then the dance was over and he put his arm around me and we walked out. i don't know. he's so hard to read. he said i'm his "smurfy bredjin" and that he's a nice guy.. meaning what? do you know, because i certainly don't. so words wise, we've established nothing except that we're friends? but the chemistry and all that, is most definitely there. maybe i'm just waiting to get my heart broken, but he's the cutest thing in the world and i love the rush i get when im with him.
apologizes about the ever changing bg. it's just the link to the picture in my msn profile because photobucket was being uncooperative the day i wanted to make this actually look good. oh well, i'm pretty sure no one reads this.
it's going to be impossible to make any of this make sense, but i will do my best. so tuesday was rent a date, as a publicity stunt for semi. now, me being football manager and all, i asked a bunch of the cute boys from the team to do it. now, the only one out of the bunch that i asked that's actually single is jonny. so he asked me to buy him because he didnt think anyone else would.... but a little while after i realized i actually did want to buy him, and it was too late to ask him to not do it, so i out bid another girl and bought him. so then i am presented with a dilemma. do i tell him, or hope the school girl crush will pass? no answer yet. thursday rolls around and i've done the unthinkable. injured my back from skating, and the pain is next to unbearable, so im taking large amounts of painkillers, and not in the best of moods. then im frantically running around with austin & mike trying to get everything bought, and we're just about leaving and i see him. so i obviously run over and hug him and talk to him and whatnot, then catch up with the boys. it was fun doing all the shopping. so after all the stressing is done, my mom comes to get me after school and i go to the mall and get my makeup done at lâncome... at this point i'm cutting it pretty damn close, so we rush home and i get dressed then rush out again. i see everyone and everything is getting done, and jonny still isn't there. i was a little disappointed, but adrian said he was in traffic and i figured i had to work anyhow so the distraction not being there was a blessing in disguise.
afterwards it's started and im serving food, and the table with all his friends is called up. i saw him and got this rush. he looked so good. i dont know what his reaction was when he saw me. so when he got to me, he said he'd come back and find me after... so he did and he walked around with me while i was transporting dessert from the food room to the caf. he was genuinely concerned about my back and it was the cutest thing ever. then he told me to go and eat and take another painkiller, so i did. when he came back, we talked for a bit and i had to clean so i gave him a few hugs and then he went off again. when i was done i went to the dance and found him. i danced with nikki watt for awhile, nichole, jenna, & tash. then a slow song came on so i went and found him. then we danced to a song.. i couldnt even tell you which one, i dont rememeber. then after awhile, a rock song came on and we went and got our picture taken as to escape it. then another slow song. at the last song, i told him. I CANT BELEIVE HE DIDNT KNOW. he's so stupid. then the dance was over and he put his arm around me and we walked out. i don't know. he's so hard to read. he said i'm his "smurfy bredjin" and that he's a nice guy.. meaning what? do you know, because i certainly don't. so words wise, we've established nothing except that we're friends? but the chemistry and all that, is most definitely there. maybe i'm just waiting to get my heart broken, but he's the cutest thing in the world and i love the rush i get when im with him.