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I'm living two lives. On the plane, i'd listen to Keane and think of relationships and families, and then i'd listen to other stuff and think about Max and people at home. One side i'm so upset and the other i'm so happy. It's the weirdest balance. I want nothing more than to cry to somebody, and i want nothing more than to dance crazily and kiss him.
Tonight at dinner i read passages from "Into the wild" and said that i was like him and Catcher and the rye. I want to get away...i don't want school. I want to take pictures, pictures of strangers and their feelings, i want to meet people and travel and at the same time i don't want things to change. I do want to run away, and i've told mom and dad that soon i'm going to leave for a little bit and it'll be okay. But i'm too scared of missing school, too scared of leaving people. Goes to show how wrapped up into this culture i am. Am i just being scared and that's why i'm staying? Or IS the strong thing to do just stay and go through the "right way"? i seriously do want you to answer that.
Tonight at dinner i read passages from "Into the wild" and said that i was like him and Catcher and the rye. I want to get away...i don't want school. I want to take pictures, pictures of strangers and their feelings, i want to meet people and travel and at the same time i don't want things to change. I do want to run away, and i've told mom and dad that soon i'm going to leave for a little bit and it'll be okay. But i'm too scared of missing school, too scared of leaving people. Goes to show how wrapped up into this culture i am. Am i just being scared and that's why i'm staying? Or IS the strong thing to do just stay and go through the "right way"? i seriously do want you to answer that.