I simply couldn't leave this chapter open...
A few months down the line, and here I am again for another update!
I've just read through my July entry, and I'm happy to report that very little has changed. I graduated in late July with 2.1 (hons) in Sociology, and went on to almost immediate employment within HBoS (to those not in the know, that's Halifax Bank of Scotland). I've worked at the Sutton branch as a Customer Adviser now for a little over 3 months, and I do really enjoy it. It keeps me busy, provides me with money each month, and it's offered me the opportunity to meet new and different people. Many people lament the end of university, and enter full-time employment feeling a little like their luck has run out after 3 years of living the high life, but I feel that this is what I should've done all along! The last 3 years (excluding the last 9months) have been the most miserable of my life. I can honestly say that I don't think it will be possible for me to feel lower than that. In a very strange way, I'm almost grateful for the fact that I have felt like that and can prove somehow that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Now university is over and I'm working, and I have the love of my gorgeous man Paul, I feel like things couldn't be any better for me at this point in time. Often I take things for granted, such as the fact that I still live at home, but the fact remains that I am 21 years old and I am cruising through life at my own pace. There is no rush for me to settle down, get myself a house and a mortgage, have children and tie myself to a mundane lifestyle. For now, I am more than comfortable living with my mum, seeing my lovely boyfriend whenever possible, having friends round or seeing friends whenever possible, going to work each day and having enough money left over each month to save for the material things I want from life. So far that list has been exhausted upon reaching holidays, but I soon hope to include on that list more driving lessons and then a car.
Speaking more of Paul...he really has been the shining light that turned everything around for me. There is not one single thing I can name that would be better if he wasn't around. He may disagree (but then he won't read this to do so!), but in my eyes our relationship is perfect. We may live 50 miles apart and only see each other twice a week, but it works for us. I feel sincere appreciation of the hours he spends driving here and back again, and the time we spend together is so precious because of our circumstances. Honestly, I've never felt about anyone how I feel about him. I could spend hours just looking at him, thinking how lucky I am to have clawed my way out of the dark place I was in to find myself in the arms of a man who will go through hell and high water to make sure I'm ok. Strange as it sounds, I almost see him as my protector - nothing can harm me while he's around. My heart is unbreakable, and my tears are uncryable. So much has happened even while we've been together, but he's been a true rock to me - he's weathered many a storm with me and we've come out standing stronger than anything. Every day we spend together feels like the first, and every goodbye feels like the last - 9 months down the line, our relationship still feels as new as it did when we first got together. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me, and there's not a day that goes by when I'm not grateful to him just for his presence in my life.
Paul, if ever you read this - I love you. Always have, always will.
xxxxxxxxxx
I've just read through my July entry, and I'm happy to report that very little has changed. I graduated in late July with 2.1 (hons) in Sociology, and went on to almost immediate employment within HBoS (to those not in the know, that's Halifax Bank of Scotland). I've worked at the Sutton branch as a Customer Adviser now for a little over 3 months, and I do really enjoy it. It keeps me busy, provides me with money each month, and it's offered me the opportunity to meet new and different people. Many people lament the end of university, and enter full-time employment feeling a little like their luck has run out after 3 years of living the high life, but I feel that this is what I should've done all along! The last 3 years (excluding the last 9months) have been the most miserable of my life. I can honestly say that I don't think it will be possible for me to feel lower than that. In a very strange way, I'm almost grateful for the fact that I have felt like that and can prove somehow that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Now university is over and I'm working, and I have the love of my gorgeous man Paul, I feel like things couldn't be any better for me at this point in time. Often I take things for granted, such as the fact that I still live at home, but the fact remains that I am 21 years old and I am cruising through life at my own pace. There is no rush for me to settle down, get myself a house and a mortgage, have children and tie myself to a mundane lifestyle. For now, I am more than comfortable living with my mum, seeing my lovely boyfriend whenever possible, having friends round or seeing friends whenever possible, going to work each day and having enough money left over each month to save for the material things I want from life. So far that list has been exhausted upon reaching holidays, but I soon hope to include on that list more driving lessons and then a car.
Speaking more of Paul...he really has been the shining light that turned everything around for me. There is not one single thing I can name that would be better if he wasn't around. He may disagree (but then he won't read this to do so!), but in my eyes our relationship is perfect. We may live 50 miles apart and only see each other twice a week, but it works for us. I feel sincere appreciation of the hours he spends driving here and back again, and the time we spend together is so precious because of our circumstances. Honestly, I've never felt about anyone how I feel about him. I could spend hours just looking at him, thinking how lucky I am to have clawed my way out of the dark place I was in to find myself in the arms of a man who will go through hell and high water to make sure I'm ok. Strange as it sounds, I almost see him as my protector - nothing can harm me while he's around. My heart is unbreakable, and my tears are uncryable. So much has happened even while we've been together, but he's been a true rock to me - he's weathered many a storm with me and we've come out standing stronger than anything. Every day we spend together feels like the first, and every goodbye feels like the last - 9 months down the line, our relationship still feels as new as it did when we first got together. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me, and there's not a day that goes by when I'm not grateful to him just for his presence in my life.
Paul, if ever you read this - I love you. Always have, always will.
xxxxxxxxxx