Dec 02, 2006 01:46
so i am intoxicated right now but whatever;. This year has been quite the experience for me, I actually thought chelsi and i were going to be friends forever. Funny how that changes so fast. I didnt want to move in with trevor in the first place and it seems that chelsi follows everything that trevor does so now she hates me. I thought we were better friends than that but i guess not. Chelsi even told allie that she didnt like me... i overheard that conversation and it hurt. I thought all of this was just a phase but i guess i was wrong. Dont room with your best friends kids... it never works out. we dont even talk to eachother anymore. how fucked up is that. i sleep at kevins apartment every night just to get away form it all. why is it that my life is so shitty. i wish college and everything was just all over and done with. i cant take it. i wish i could jsut move away and or have some fatal illness or something so i wouldnt have to deal with this. i hate not getting aong with people feeeling like i have to avoid them.. it really sucks especially when those people used to be your best friends. why does life suck for me so much. i think im getting a new job so that should be good. No more brunswick for me thank god. alright well i need some sleep
Rachel