You cant save me, You cant CHANGE me
You know the saying, Relationships will come and go but your friends will stay forever? BULLSHIT! That saying is fucking BULLSHIT! How can someone have such deep hated feelings for someone else and yet want to hang out with them? I get it... I do things to annoy you guys...You do things to annoy me too but i deal with them because you are my close friend and that is what you do with friends. I have never asked anything of you except friendship. I try to be there for you whenever you need me but to you i guess its not enough. I just dont know what to do to make you happy again. I feel like its my fault that you hate people so much. I just dont understand how you can hate me so much and still call me and want to do things with me. If we hang out than i am going to do the things that annoy you. Thats how i am. I am trying to work on it because i know how much it bothers you but i feel like i cant talk around you without you going behind my back and bitching about me. Its funny how you dont see that you do the same things i do. When we hang out we bring up old stories and what not.. YOU usually bring them up but IM the one that gets on your nerves.You are always talking about how much work sucks but if i do it you want to shoot me. I really just dont get it. When i first started noticing how annoyed with me you were i started to pull away from you and hang out with other friends because i didnt want to be an annoyance but i guess you didnt like that either. Its like nothing i do is right. I cant change how i am. I am trying to because i value your friendship. Please just dont act like we are still bestfriends and everything is cool and then turn around and tell everyone at the alley how much you hate me. Its like a slap in the fucking face that you wont tell me how you feel but you will write it in your livejournals and tell everyone else but me. The past two days were awesome we hung out and it was like old times again.I just dont know if you hung out with me just because there was no one else to hang out with or if you hung out with me because you really want to. If i am that much of a burden then stop being my friend. I dont need your sympathy friendship. I hope it is not sympathy friendship though because i thought you really were my best friend. I hope things are changing for the better between us. If not then i will leave it up to you as to what you wanna do.