CHANGES: JESS = HAPPY
why do i always write in here when i'm angry/cranky/confused??? i'm really not like that all the time...
anyways... HAPPY things... I got drunk, goddamn jagerbombs, last night and remember very little after coming home. Bits and pieces keep coming into my mind, including a conversation with Aaron... I remember tears, feeling safe, and him whispering 'I'd never leave you' - although that may have been my imagination. I DO, however, remember me telling him that he means more to me than anything and that it's not just a casual, muck around thing anymore. I can't recall what he said. Either way, I got most of it off my chest, and now feel slightly relieved.
Happy, happy, happy.
It may also have something to do with him not going to the party and being all helpless and such, but really that's just a side part. I did feel slightly horrible watching them all get ready tonight, I could tell he wanted to go too, but meh. Fate, etc.
ok... Bedtime... bus leaves at 7.45 AM (yes, that's right... AM... as in BEFORE lunchtime!) eep... i'll be cranky tomorrow, unless the Dragons win, eeh ahh =P
ok, nonsense now
[ending happy post]
anyways... HAPPY things... I got drunk, goddamn jagerbombs, last night and remember very little after coming home. Bits and pieces keep coming into my mind, including a conversation with Aaron... I remember tears, feeling safe, and him whispering 'I'd never leave you' - although that may have been my imagination. I DO, however, remember me telling him that he means more to me than anything and that it's not just a casual, muck around thing anymore. I can't recall what he said. Either way, I got most of it off my chest, and now feel slightly relieved.
Happy, happy, happy.
It may also have something to do with him not going to the party and being all helpless and such, but really that's just a side part. I did feel slightly horrible watching them all get ready tonight, I could tell he wanted to go too, but meh. Fate, etc.
ok... Bedtime... bus leaves at 7.45 AM (yes, that's right... AM... as in BEFORE lunchtime!) eep... i'll be cranky tomorrow, unless the Dragons win, eeh ahh =P
ok, nonsense now
[ending happy post]