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Ok, I lied in my last LJ. I say this because I broke up with Brendan. But only because I still really like Kyle. And I asked him saturday night if he wants to try "us" again....an he said he would think about it. He still hasn't decied. But I don't think he is going to take me back. He might. But I don't think so. Yesterday my internet was down. So I had alot of time to write some poems. The last 2 are about Kyle. The 1st one is just something I felt.LV COMMENTS.
Only Pain is Real...
By: Bailey Smith-Micklewright
It all seems so real,
but nothing is ever real.
Only pain is real.
You can have control over most pain.
If you want to feel it or if you want to avoid it.
Some dreams they seem so real.
But a dream is only something we think up.
A dream may look,
Or sometimes even feel real.
But it's never real.
Because dreams are only thoughts,
and never come true.
Love is fake.
Because even though you can tell someone you love them,
you can easily just fall out of love.
With the snap of your fingers you could hate the other person.
Happiness isn't real.
Because from the moment your "happy",
your just waiting for something bad to happen.
So nothing is real but pain.
Because everything always ends up hurting.
Even if you are in "love", or you are "happy",
You just think it.
It's all just a dream.
That goes on forever.
But pain is never a dream.
Pain is actually there.
Love doesnt exist because,
if the person dies alot of people can move on.
But they go through pain first.
Happiness is fake because,
You can be happy one minute and in pain the next.
So now you can really see,
Only pain is real.
I Love You
By: Bailey Smith-Micklewright
I tell you I love you.
But it's like I don't even say it.
You just avoid the words.
Like you stomp all over them as if they mean nothing.
Like they aren't true.
But if you don't believe me.
Do you think I would be writing this poem to you.
Trying to explain how much you mean to me.
How much I regret leaving you.
How much I hurt without you.
But I don't think you can take me back.
Because of how I left you.
Even though I care for you and wish you were still mine,
and that I was still in your arms.
I believe your over me now.
I believe I have to forget about you.
Unless you tell me now,
and tell me true that you will be by my side.
Through thick and thin.
That you still love me too.
You Don't Understand
You dont understand how much i miss you.
How much I wish i was still with you.
How much i want to be in ur arms.
And feel nothing can hurt me.
No you don't get it.
You just dont understand.
And if you do,
then please tell me you do.
Because I don't know anymore.
Well i g2g do homework. I'll update another time. Luv ye *muah*
Bailz