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i am so done with Chris... I can't do this anymore. I am so tired of being upset and crying. It's just not worth it anymore to me. I can't continue to put myself through this for the sake of nothing. Things aren't going to change, he's not going to change, and it's just not worth it anymore. All i wanted was for us to be happy and apparently he can't let it happen so you know what FUCK HIM! I'm done trying to explain myself. I have no reason to. He has no reason to not trust me or to say any of the shit that he has so oh fucking well. I deserve more then this!!!!! He wants to push everything on me and wants to make everything out to be my fault and I'm so over it. You know what he can go back to his ex who cheated on him, lied to him, left him, and treated him like shit and then maybe he'll be happy. If he pulled this shit with her, there's no wonder she cheated. If you're going to take the heat for it you might as well do it right? I'm just not that type of person and I never have been and I never will be. There's no reason to lie about anything. If I wanted someone else I'd be with someone else. I have plenty of other people that would love to be with me but for some reason i continuously go back to the ASSHOLES that are going to make me feel horrible about myself. I give up. I don't want anything to do with him anymore. I AM NOT GOING TO BE MADE TO FEEL LIKE THIS ANYMORE! I did this shit for far to long with Jeremy and I'm not doing it again. So FUCK HIM AND EVERYTHING THAT DEALS WITH HIM!