ive found my one true love & noone can take that away
happy easter
!!! sorry i disappeared..but i found myself again well really Josh found me..does it make any sesnse?? it does to me anyway!!! things with me & Josh are gettin pretty serious & i have never been happier. i think wednesday we went & looked @ rings..i told him i dont want one that i dont need one and i dont think i should have one until we get married.. plus its not gonna make alot of sense for him to spend money on an engagement ring when in like 10 months he might be spending more money on a wedding ring. Friday we went to the mall & was at reeds and looked at their rings. i found one i liked but its $700 so i dont like it anymore. theres another one that only $249 and i like that one alot too. i just really dont want him to spend alot of money on me. so he made me make a deal with him. hes gonna spend a couple hundred on my engagement ring but i cant get mad if he spends a couple thousand on my wedding ring. i said ok altho i dont want him to do that either cause thats a lot of freakin money and im not used to guys doing that. i mean he takes me out to eat takes me to the movies, pays for my tanning bed stuff like that because he wants to. ive never asked him but he gets upset with me when he knows i need or want something and i wont ask him for it or for money for it but im not like that. it kills me to ask people for money. he said last night that really all id have to do was see something and say i liked it and hed buy it for me because he loves me and he wants to spend money on me because it makes it happy. i dont know i know most girls loveeee guys to spend money on them but i dont i feel like in a way its begging or something and makes me feel bad because right now i dont have to money to spend on him. oo and we went to kmart and he donated $16 to a foundation to help find missing kids..he said he did it because once he has kids if they ended up missing hed want someone to help find them...it was adorable and i fell even more in love with him. hes my world and i dont know what i would do without him
i love you joshua