summasummertime
The heat is on, and the pressure just keeps getting worse. I signed up for this and I have to stand by it. And i'm starting to like it. It finally kicked in when the scrubs came I guess. I looked at myself in the mirror and told myself that I can do this. And the fact that i'm not only in it for myself but for my family, gives me a good feeling. And it made me think, when I do get old ..and my parents are gone, i'm gonna go on with my life alone :( So sad really. People with siblings often think that people who doesn't have brothers nor sisters have it so easy and so fun. It's actually the opposite. I find myself lonely at times, and I crave that bond either a good or a bad one with a sibling. And fun? may be, at times it does cause I have both of my parents attention. But that has it's con side which is more responsibility for me, it all falls on me with the pressure and expectations. In general, we (only child) may look like we're spoiled ..i'd rather share everything I have with someone with me than have it all to myself. I wished before to have a little brother or sister, but at my age right now and my parents as well ..that wish just seems blurry. Oh well, I still have my cousins close ..whom I hold dear.
2 down, 1 more to go. I feel so drained out and I can feel my brain drying out. I wish i'll get things done tonight and have myself ready for Saturday, sigh. Oh God, help me get through it.
After my tests, on my way home ..i've got an unexpected phone call. Once I saw A.G.O I automatically thought of him. It's such a nice feeling to have that special someone think of you and do something about it without having to ask. It definitely surprised me :)) ..thanks for spending your break time talking to me baby. 2 more hrs and you're done, smh ..12 hr shift is hella boring I find. Glad you're holding up.
K, so power nap ..then studying I go.