Hello, Monday
I went for a longish bike ride with the girls the other day and today, my tailbone is so sore! I may inflate my donut pillow today :-/
Charlotte went to bed at about 8:30 last night and slept ALL NIGHT! She was grumping and wiggling around when I went to bed just before midnight but she didn't wake up. I woke up a couple of times, looked at the clock, looked in her bed, and then went back to sleep. Charlotte woke up just after 5 am and I took her to bed with me to nurse and then we slept until 7:30!
It's one week today until Abby's birthday and I find myself getting my babies birthday plans all mixed up. I have to remind myself, "there are no invitations to send out for Abby's birthday......there will be a baby eating her birthday cake this month but not until the 22nd......I need one candle for Charlotte's cake, two candles for Abby's cake.....the birthday present in my closet needs to be wrapped for Charlotte, but I have no such gift for Abby...."
I feel very emotional, as I expected, but this year I don't feel I have the 'permission' to feel this way. I'm not pregnant, it's been two years already, and my life appears to have moved on to 'better' things. I think back to how I was feeling at this time of year two years ago, just before Abby was born, and again last year just before Charlotte was born. It's not that I'm living only in the past, but those memories are so loud and bright this time of year. Two years ago, I never, ever would have imagined that my life would look like this but I am so grateful for my babies and all that they have taught me.
(And for D only; I haven't forgotten what else was happening on this day two years ago...)
Charlotte went to bed at about 8:30 last night and slept ALL NIGHT! She was grumping and wiggling around when I went to bed just before midnight but she didn't wake up. I woke up a couple of times, looked at the clock, looked in her bed, and then went back to sleep. Charlotte woke up just after 5 am and I took her to bed with me to nurse and then we slept until 7:30!
It's one week today until Abby's birthday and I find myself getting my babies birthday plans all mixed up. I have to remind myself, "there are no invitations to send out for Abby's birthday......there will be a baby eating her birthday cake this month but not until the 22nd......I need one candle for Charlotte's cake, two candles for Abby's cake.....the birthday present in my closet needs to be wrapped for Charlotte, but I have no such gift for Abby...."
I feel very emotional, as I expected, but this year I don't feel I have the 'permission' to feel this way. I'm not pregnant, it's been two years already, and my life appears to have moved on to 'better' things. I think back to how I was feeling at this time of year two years ago, just before Abby was born, and again last year just before Charlotte was born. It's not that I'm living only in the past, but those memories are so loud and bright this time of year. Two years ago, I never, ever would have imagined that my life would look like this but I am so grateful for my babies and all that they have taught me.
(And for D only; I haven't forgotten what else was happening on this day two years ago...)