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[babycatcher33]

I journal for many reasons; to share pictures of my kids, for grief therapy, to document my midwifery journey, and to seek empathy and support - to know that I am not alone.

I have been under a lot of stress and pressure lately, and I know that I don't handle it well.  I would really like to be one of those people who exhibit grace under pressure,

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[zdafos]

I would like to be on your friends list .. if you're up for one more friend.

[babycatcher33]

Sure :-)

[cattarina]

I would like to be added as well.

In any case, you need to look after you how you see best. If you need to keep some things to yourself then do it, I do it, I'm sure we all do. I've often felt (feel?) that I'm everything I can be, to everyone around me, and very rarely do I get back even the most minimal effort. Sometimes it's self pitying, I know that, but sometimes I need to be reassured, supported and coddled, and I don't think that's too much to expect from the ones I so willingly give it to...but yet apparently it is.

Ohhhh, rant much? Sorry for high-jacking your comments, I just wanted to assure you that you are not alone, even when you're surrounded by virtual strangers.

[babycatcher33]

...sometimes I need to be reassured, supported and coddled, and I don't think that's too much to expect from the ones I so willingly give it to...but yet apparently it is.

I feel this way too. We give and give and give, and when we need that bit of kindness, reassurance, or support it isn't always available. It's nice to know I'm not alone in feeling that way.

[skybabie]

As long as your with people you love at least here it seems to be falling into place in the end..

I'll listen if you ever need an ear :) I know all to well about on the barfing kids and empty bank accounts at least...

[babycatcher33]

Barfing kids and empty bank accounts are universal, it seems ;-)

Can I be your friend?

[scrapbookinggal]

Janice,
I've been reading your blog since you lost Abby. I, too, am struggling right now and in the throws of depression. I would like to be added to your friends list if you'll have me. You family is beautiful as are you. Keep pressing on.

Kara

Re: Can I be your friend?

[babycatcher33]

Thank you, for reading and for your kind words :-)

[tinahenry4]

I don't mind hearing your venting at all. It's nice somedays to know that I am not alone in how I feel. I do however understand the need to have some things private. No matter how supportive online friends are, there are just some things a person doesn't feel great about putting out there.
I also understand how depression and feeling overwhelmed can make a person pull back, and sometimes that's not such a good thing. I tend to do the same thing and it only makes me feel worse...
I'm here for you, vents and all. I wish we lived closer, and I could help you in some way. We all have our struggles, and sharing it with the *right* people can lighten the load.

[babycatcher33]

Thank you for that :-) It's a vulnerable feeling sometimes to just let it all hang out here, but for the most part, the people who read really do care and I appreciate the support. I'm very glad you're on my FL and I can't wait to someday meet IRL!