jus journaling.
well, i've been told to try to keep a journal or diary of some sort and I'm positive its not so anyone can read, its just to get shit off my chest... so I figured what better way then to do it like this. it will give me the mental aspect of it as well as the phyaical therapy/typing aspect of it too... I just got the computer from moss probably two weeks ago but all I really wanted it for was listening to music, storing photos, and to start typing..
I think I'm going to go for a walk today, it might help me feel better about myself today.. I'm just so sick of sitting at home on my ass doing nothing everyday.. I should do some volunteer work or something... i dont really feel like typing soo much anymore.. and i allready blogged something on myspace so i think im going to get my ass off the computer for a lil w hiule and just re-post it in here.. cuz im going to try to keep up with this old live journal...
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woke up this morning, after a really really really long day yesterday of pure hell. dont know why. got in a fight with the doctor, had to go to the dentist, didnt feel like doing much of anything.... woke up this morning, put some comfy pj's on and took joe to work. and on the way home told myself today was going to be nothing but a "Chillax" day... but the more I sit here and drink this coffee, the more I realize I wish I was doing something productive today. I wish I was the one that had to wake up for work this morning, and get grouchy cuz I didn;'t want to crawl out of bed, I wish I was doing more then sitting at home, filling out more and more doctor paper-work... this stuff is getting old... and by old I mean... ANNOYING!
I'm ready to move forward in life, weather it's go back to school, or start a new job, or meet people and go to important meetings, I want to be that busy girl that doesn't have time for Anyone, I want to have to get up an extra hour early everyday to make sure I look my best cuz have to impress the boss, or plan a trip a vacatioin perhaps...
I guess what I'm trying to say is now that I have no more surgeries to look forward to, physical/speech/and mental therapy isnt what I want my life to revolve around anymore.. I want to be important, and I want me waking up everyday to have meaning... TRUE heart, and TRUE meaning...
I miss people. I miss being alone. I miss talking, and I miss having no one to talk to. I miss work, and I miss doing NOTHING... I'm sure none of this makes sense, but thats okay. it's my bulletin for the day and out of alllll these hundreds of thousands of myspace accounts I'm sure my bulletin will quickly move up to where many others are showing..so I guess none of this matters anyway~ thanks.... if you DID read it... not sure why.. but thankyou~
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alrighty, nothin to important, big, or really matter,,, im going to get my ass dressed, take a shower, and do something productive today.. mucho love to all that still care!
love forever and always
I think I'm going to go for a walk today, it might help me feel better about myself today.. I'm just so sick of sitting at home on my ass doing nothing everyday.. I should do some volunteer work or something... i dont really feel like typing soo much anymore.. and i allready blogged something on myspace so i think im going to get my ass off the computer for a lil w hiule and just re-post it in here.. cuz im going to try to keep up with this old live journal...
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woke up this morning, after a really really really long day yesterday of pure hell. dont know why. got in a fight with the doctor, had to go to the dentist, didnt feel like doing much of anything.... woke up this morning, put some comfy pj's on and took joe to work. and on the way home told myself today was going to be nothing but a "Chillax" day... but the more I sit here and drink this coffee, the more I realize I wish I was doing something productive today. I wish I was the one that had to wake up for work this morning, and get grouchy cuz I didn;'t want to crawl out of bed, I wish I was doing more then sitting at home, filling out more and more doctor paper-work... this stuff is getting old... and by old I mean... ANNOYING!
I'm ready to move forward in life, weather it's go back to school, or start a new job, or meet people and go to important meetings, I want to be that busy girl that doesn't have time for Anyone, I want to have to get up an extra hour early everyday to make sure I look my best cuz have to impress the boss, or plan a trip a vacatioin perhaps...
I guess what I'm trying to say is now that I have no more surgeries to look forward to, physical/speech/and mental therapy isnt what I want my life to revolve around anymore.. I want to be important, and I want me waking up everyday to have meaning... TRUE heart, and TRUE meaning...
I miss people. I miss being alone. I miss talking, and I miss having no one to talk to. I miss work, and I miss doing NOTHING... I'm sure none of this makes sense, but thats okay. it's my bulletin for the day and out of alllll these hundreds of thousands of myspace accounts I'm sure my bulletin will quickly move up to where many others are showing..so I guess none of this matters anyway~ thanks.... if you DID read it... not sure why.. but thankyou~
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alrighty, nothin to important, big, or really matter,,, im going to get my ass dressed, take a shower, and do something productive today.. mucho love to all that still care!
love forever and always