some things stay the same

[babybrowneyesny]

it's tears and joy
tears and joy without real tears
over here
not even when it tears her up inside.
it's joy and confusion
confusion and loss
it's being uncertain without being lost
its heals and scars
scars and smiles
it's a shade of blue with a little style?
it's unknown and unwanted
sacred to dark
sacred to heart
short of love
short of home
something is unfamiliar here
and what was had was hated
and what's now is scary and silent
my mind complains
and aspires
i can only love this same
this downhill winding upward

je suis toujours solitaire, fatiguée, dur.
happy, hungry, searching, appreciative, youthful, grown, triumphant, turmoiled, confident, sad, passionate, discouraged, gentle, dedicated, wishful, resilient, independant, pained, prideful, understanding, confused, spirited, worn, blessed...

je n'ai pas peur

adieu