Sep 29, 2004 22:20
I don't wanna talk bout the bad shit thats been going on, I will though 2morrow. Today is the Gift!
Me and this girl have been talkin forever. She calls me everyday and we talk as if we are together & shit. This is the same girl that I've had fone sex with a few times & she's a BISEXUAL but that shit doesn't bother me. She told me that she just broke up wit her girlfriend, she even used to put her gf on hold just so she could talk to me. I think she is feelin me because a lot of people say I have an attractive personality. She told me about how these other girls are tryna get her and how these other niggaz are tryna get her. She said "hurry up, u betta get me". I should right? I've been searchin and searchin 4eva. I've been single for 2 summers now, 2 years of loneliness. The question that pops up in my head sometimes is "do you really wanna be in a relationship?" I really cannot answer that tough ass question even if it was a billion dollar question. I can't decide. I'm used to living that single life, flirtin, meetin a new girl everyday and shit but then again I am tired of being lonely & I'm tired of the rude/fake ass girls, some who even play hard to get. They got me at the bottom of the deck searching for my Ace, I don't even know if I should be her "man/nigga". She's cool, I'm feelin her, she a lil freaky and shit but she cool. I have never been in Love before, well I have but not real love. My last relationship was a short ass 2 months, cuz we didn't talk anymore, well she couldn't. I'm not only searching for Love, I'm also searching for Real Love.
I wonder whats it like? she is 4eva askin me that question "when are you gonna skip school, so I could come ova?" I don't know. She wanted me as her date to her homecoming but I'd have no ride back. I'm sorry I'm just confused, I don't know what I want right now. I don't even know what cards I should play. Shes givin me an opportunity too.
Somebody holla back at me