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[babyblueeyes7]

Four months ago
I'd lay in my bed
Praying that God would keep me safe
Worried that my plane would crash

Four months ago
My beautiful friends all stood in one room
Dancing and laughing
In the light of my farewell

Four months ago
I was given an ornament
A ceramic, blue horse made sometime ago
As a token of everlasting affection

Four months ago
I tried desperately to lose weight
Always exercising and measuring
In hopes that I would look like the girl in the magazine
Because didn’t I know that
That is what all girls are supposed to look like?

Four months ago
I watched the movie Garden State
While making a banana cake
It tasted horrible with tears.

Four months ago
I stressed out about everything
Overworking myself
Into an ulcer

Four months ago
I lived my days by planners
Another check mark
On my list of things to do

Four months ago
I neatly packed my life
Into two suitcases and a
Sky blue Jan sport book bag

Four months ago
I had never been out of the U.S
Had never set foot on the
Soil of another country

Four months ago
I stepped on plane
Excited and afraid
Of what the future would hold

Four months ago
I knew who I was
Where I was going
And where I had been

But that was four months ago...

Who am I now…?