sleep will come when the light has changed to faintest blue

[babyblu0302]

The dreams have returned..this repeated nightmare has been the cause of so many sleepless nights. The struggle to wake myself up is the worst stage, trapped just beneath the surface of consciousness; it feels like drowning. Then to awaken, frozen in terror..it takes awhile just for my heart to slow down and breathing to get back to normal..let

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[ct_tim]

Nightmares are no good... especially repeating ones =( I remember one... I'll tell you about it later maybe.

And uhmm... you don't have to be lonely every other night... =x

I'd write a lot more but I have to go take my exams... but in regard to the last paragraph...

I read that a long time ago (a long time being like... 10? months ago) and it struck a chord with me. It made a lot of sense... I mean, how could I ever love someone without knowing what real love is? It still takes me a lot to trust God with relationships, but he's teaching me a lot... I opened up to the book of Hebrews one night randomly to the "Faith chapter" and I read about how Abraham was told to sacrifice Isaac, the one promised to him by God... and I thought... this is what God has called us to do, even if he does send "the one" into our lives, they're still in his hands, and if it's his will that we have to give them up for a time to do what he's called us to do, then he will be faithful to complete his promise in the end...

So much faith involved, it's really tough sometimes =/

[babyblu0302]

that story is so powerful..I wish my faith were that strong.

'he who began a good work in you will be faithful to complete it' <-(what's the reference for that??)

where'd you read the paragraph before? I'm not sure where it came from..someone sent just that part to me forever ago, and I saved it and came across it just at the right time :) I want to read more..it sounds like it's out of a Josh Harris book.