here's to hoping this is real
I wish I could really sing. Not just carry a tune, but I mean Joss Stone sing (Although I think i'd pick better songs to sing if I had a voice like that)
Too much has happened for a recap..so much going on, I barely have time to think..but maybe that's a good thing.
so much love & encouragement in the past couple weeks is overwhelming...I gain back so much more when I find a purpose somewhere outside of myself. It is truly nice to feel needed and wanted. I'm so blessed, honestly, discontent is a waste of time.
I've been thinking ahead about next year a lot, and I don't like the idea my parents offered to support. I want to do something amazing, get completely out of my comfort zone, let God use me in new way...become inspired, gain a new perspective.. somehow I can't see all of that happening staying at CCBC. Maybe I'll go to Africa for 3 months like Craig :P Yeah..
So tired of baby steps..or none at all. I get so impatient because I desire to grow so much at once and make up for the times I sat out..yet at the same time there is this fear of the unknown and change that I can't seem to shake..I contradict myself so often :|
things I've been called this week: caterpillar, Norman, beautiful, vampire, lazy bum...and the list goes on. hmmm, I should have left 10 minutes ago...time to end this entry. so sleepy...
p.s.-comment with a song for me to learn? thanks to Nate for last week's..it makes my week so much better :)
Too much has happened for a recap..so much going on, I barely have time to think..but maybe that's a good thing.
so much love & encouragement in the past couple weeks is overwhelming...I gain back so much more when I find a purpose somewhere outside of myself. It is truly nice to feel needed and wanted. I'm so blessed, honestly, discontent is a waste of time.
I've been thinking ahead about next year a lot, and I don't like the idea my parents offered to support. I want to do something amazing, get completely out of my comfort zone, let God use me in new way...become inspired, gain a new perspective.. somehow I can't see all of that happening staying at CCBC. Maybe I'll go to Africa for 3 months like Craig :P Yeah..
So tired of baby steps..or none at all. I get so impatient because I desire to grow so much at once and make up for the times I sat out..yet at the same time there is this fear of the unknown and change that I can't seem to shake..I contradict myself so often :|
things I've been called this week: caterpillar, Norman, beautiful, vampire, lazy bum...and the list goes on. hmmm, I should have left 10 minutes ago...time to end this entry. so sleepy...
p.s.-comment with a song for me to learn? thanks to Nate for last week's..it makes my week so much better :)