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I am so nervous about college. I don't want to go. What if people don't like me? What if I don't meet people? What if I don't "fit" in? I don't want to go home every weekend. What if I sleep late and miss my classes? What if I can't do the work? What if my professors are pricks?
I don't want to leave Kyle. I really don't. He's my best friend, brother, everything to me. What am I going to do without him? He makes me so happy, he makes me happy to be me. He makes me feel so loved. I miss him when I don't see him for a day, what am I going to do for over a month? How can I leave my dad? I'm going to miss him so much. I'm gonna miss having my cats, birds & guinea pig around my room. I think I'll even miss the dogs barking 24/7. I'm gonna miss going to the mailbox, walking around the block, knowing that at the end of the day I'll just go home and cuddle up in MY bed. I love my bed. I love my family. I love Kyle.
I'm not ready, I'm not. All summer I have been so excited and couldn't wait until I move in. Not anymore. Less than a week! I won't be home another Thursday until Thanksgiving!! Why am I feeling so depressed and panicky? I can't do this to myself..I can't. This is going to be harder than I thought. I have to think positive but it's so easier to think negative.
I don't want to leave Kyle. I really don't. He's my best friend, brother, everything to me. What am I going to do without him? He makes me so happy, he makes me happy to be me. He makes me feel so loved. I miss him when I don't see him for a day, what am I going to do for over a month? How can I leave my dad? I'm going to miss him so much. I'm gonna miss having my cats, birds & guinea pig around my room. I think I'll even miss the dogs barking 24/7. I'm gonna miss going to the mailbox, walking around the block, knowing that at the end of the day I'll just go home and cuddle up in MY bed. I love my bed. I love my family. I love Kyle.
I'm not ready, I'm not. All summer I have been so excited and couldn't wait until I move in. Not anymore. Less than a week! I won't be home another Thursday until Thanksgiving!! Why am I feeling so depressed and panicky? I can't do this to myself..I can't. This is going to be harder than I thought. I have to think positive but it's so easier to think negative.