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Eh, it's been a while...
Well, i wish i could post an all new, positive me and tell nice stories of love and happiness but that's not how it goes.
Each day, week, month i become more and more disillusioned about life and people and less and less hopeful.
It feels like I am truly alone and that i will never ever meet anyone who thinks and feels and values the way i do. Not ( Read more... ) -
I fail :(
Why can't I make it work? No matter how hard i try, it's just not good enough. I can't do it on my own and i just don't get the responses and actions from him that I need. I just can't make it work. I've carried us for so long that i just need for him to take some of that on, and he just wont.
I need him to step u, and he doesnt know how and i dont ( Read more... ) -
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Interesting...
Hmm, my ex before R is back on irc and msgd me asking me what i want, if anything and how i feel ect and whether i wanted to get back together..and the only reason he didn't give our relationship a proper go is because we lived so far apart..
How bizarre..
Well, basically, i told it how it is..I'm not looking for a casual good time and he isn't up ( Read more... ) -
Busy Busy..
Well..today has been busy busy. Started at 5.30am with Bub and had to get out of the house early for his doctor's appointment which was at 8.50. I decided to walk today, for some insane reason..not on a day when I can take it easy at a leisurely pace, but today, when i was in a rush and had to be there at given time :/
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*Yawn*
Hmmm so tired..and have no idea why..
I kinda feel like at the moment im partly having to be upbeat and keep spirits up and be positive even when i dont feel that way ... but..in a way, i kinda feel like that's the only way..kinda in an attempt to retrain myself.
Untrain myself to not mope about and be depressed.
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Mmmm..
Mmmm, I have decided to take the first step to go back and do the things I used to do, that made me happy, and feel content without needing anyone else to do that for me.
I am going to either a) go and have dinner somewhere nice and see a chick flick..or b)get some cheese and crackers and some of my fav nibblies and sit at home in peace and quiet ( Read more... ) -
AAAAAAAARGH..BLOODY SERVICEMEN!
I do not understand why servicemen are so slack! Is it that they have so much money that they don't need to provide quality or service or convenience? GRR!
Last week we had gale force winds of 120km/hr and our garage door (which is only 7mths old along with the house) completely blew off its hinges. So my landlady calls the insruance company as it ( Read more... ) -
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
Well! I decided a change was in order! From today onwards, we are going forwards! We are going to be positive and enthusiastic and focus on all that is good and slowly but surely, learn to accept what has been.
I am looking forward to making some changes around my house and in my life. I am also looking forward to planning over the next 6mths, for ( Read more... ) -
Here we go again...
Sigh..back to counselling i go.