Socailizing without booze in hand
Last night was so much fun!
I went out to the club, then to see Riverhead play (they even dedicated a song to me awwww) and then headed back to Area.
Reason why it was so fun: because of the company I was around AND because I was SOBER. It's amazing the fun conversations I have with people-I noticed that I made a lot of people laugh last night. I didn't think I was that entertaining. I always thought I had to be drunk to be social. Now I realize that I can remember conversations which means I am building stronger relationships with the friends around me.
My friends are starting to not be viewed as "the club" friends, but actual real friends.
Now, being sober-this is what is weird, it's not like I have stopped drinking due to going over board all the time, and developing a problem with alcohol, it is because my body JUST DOESN'T LIKE IT. Period. I got a long island iced tea, (usually I will down three of those, then move onto beer and shots during the rest of the night) and after 2 sips I literally felt sick, so sick I had to go to the bathroom because I thought I was going to throw up.
I ended up giving my Long Island away-and people who know me might be shocked because usually I am trying to get people to give me their drinks!
Along with last night, beer doesn't sit well with me anymore-if just makes me full, if I do have a beer I end up throwing about half of it away!
And wine-talk about heart burn! I can only handle half a glass.
ANYWAY
Whole point of this post is to say I am very excited for the future and the building of stronger, long lasting friendships. I am very excited that I can go out into public without a drink in hand and not have panic attacks. Now, last night may have been a fluke......hopefully it wasn't. I guess all I can do is to keep going out, having a good time, and see if this happy, outgoing personality will be right by my side the whole night.
I went out to the club, then to see Riverhead play (they even dedicated a song to me awwww) and then headed back to Area.
Reason why it was so fun: because of the company I was around AND because I was SOBER. It's amazing the fun conversations I have with people-I noticed that I made a lot of people laugh last night. I didn't think I was that entertaining. I always thought I had to be drunk to be social. Now I realize that I can remember conversations which means I am building stronger relationships with the friends around me.
My friends are starting to not be viewed as "the club" friends, but actual real friends.
Now, being sober-this is what is weird, it's not like I have stopped drinking due to going over board all the time, and developing a problem with alcohol, it is because my body JUST DOESN'T LIKE IT. Period. I got a long island iced tea, (usually I will down three of those, then move onto beer and shots during the rest of the night) and after 2 sips I literally felt sick, so sick I had to go to the bathroom because I thought I was going to throw up.
I ended up giving my Long Island away-and people who know me might be shocked because usually I am trying to get people to give me their drinks!
Along with last night, beer doesn't sit well with me anymore-if just makes me full, if I do have a beer I end up throwing about half of it away!
And wine-talk about heart burn! I can only handle half a glass.
ANYWAY
Whole point of this post is to say I am very excited for the future and the building of stronger, long lasting friendships. I am very excited that I can go out into public without a drink in hand and not have panic attacks. Now, last night may have been a fluke......hopefully it wasn't. I guess all I can do is to keep going out, having a good time, and see if this happy, outgoing personality will be right by my side the whole night.