Let down....
It's kind of aggravating when I post something as personal as I did in my last post, and the end result is no response from anyone. I am going to stop trying to relate to people, put myself out there and try to get closer to my friends by opening myself up.
I think I will be deleting my live journal account since this is the place where I post my most intimate details of my life, and getting no feed back is kind of a downer to me, and I don't need any negative feelings/stress right now.
I may sound stupid, and kind of like a "pity jen" post, but it's not. I put myself out there to get some support, and there is no support to be had. Aren't we told to reach out when we are in trouble, or have a problem going on in our lives?
I respond to all my friends when they are in a time of need, or even when they are not. I still respond to make sure they know someone is listening. Maybe I am being too sensitive, but it still hurts to get no response to almost all the things I post, on any social network.
I guess it makes me feel ignored, our not part of the circle of friends I feel like had before I stopped going out to the bar and to parties...it's as if one disappears they are forgotten about.
I am trying to reach out more and ask people to go to lunch/walks/tea. I am trying to put my foot forward and accept invitations to dinners and get togethers outside of the bar/parties, but to be honest it has taken me a good 6 months to be able to go out with people without having a drink in my hand. I have severe social anxiety and I suppose I drank to get over that. And now that I am sober (for the most part) it's really hard for me to connect to people outside of that environment.
I just had to get that off my chest. It has been bugging me for a really long time now, and especially with the break up I just went through I have been shunned by a lot of people who were my friends before I met Taylor. I guess they felt like they had to "chose sides" which is sad because they don't know the whole story about our break up, and in fact we are still really good friends and talk daily.
This is getting off topic.
Long story short, I am not getting the feedback I am wishing for, so I am going to close off a little bit, back away, and see what happens.
I think I will be deleting my live journal account since this is the place where I post my most intimate details of my life, and getting no feed back is kind of a downer to me, and I don't need any negative feelings/stress right now.
I may sound stupid, and kind of like a "pity jen" post, but it's not. I put myself out there to get some support, and there is no support to be had. Aren't we told to reach out when we are in trouble, or have a problem going on in our lives?
I respond to all my friends when they are in a time of need, or even when they are not. I still respond to make sure they know someone is listening. Maybe I am being too sensitive, but it still hurts to get no response to almost all the things I post, on any social network.
I guess it makes me feel ignored, our not part of the circle of friends I feel like had before I stopped going out to the bar and to parties...it's as if one disappears they are forgotten about.
I am trying to reach out more and ask people to go to lunch/walks/tea. I am trying to put my foot forward and accept invitations to dinners and get togethers outside of the bar/parties, but to be honest it has taken me a good 6 months to be able to go out with people without having a drink in my hand. I have severe social anxiety and I suppose I drank to get over that. And now that I am sober (for the most part) it's really hard for me to connect to people outside of that environment.
I just had to get that off my chest. It has been bugging me for a really long time now, and especially with the break up I just went through I have been shunned by a lot of people who were my friends before I met Taylor. I guess they felt like they had to "chose sides" which is sad because they don't know the whole story about our break up, and in fact we are still really good friends and talk daily.
This is getting off topic.
Long story short, I am not getting the feedback I am wishing for, so I am going to close off a little bit, back away, and see what happens.