its over

[babiephat]

mauricio broke up with me thursday. he says it was because he doesn't want a girlfriend right now. He didn't want a serious relationship anymore. HE wouldn't tell me anything else. all he said was that he wanted us to be friends. I cried my eyes out. My friends comforted me. I am staying strong enough for them.. but inside im tearing myself apart.

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[dezireddiva]

oh, how I know this whole fucked up situation ; in & out.

I wish there were magic words I could say to help ease your pain, but in reality.. the only thing that you see will help you is him. its not true of course, but when you're in that bubble, that's all you know. How can anyone blame you? It happens to the best of us sweetheart. Just know that there are people out there who have been through this & even worse situations. You'll surpass all of this in a matter of time. Its time that is your worst enemy now tho. It goes by so slow at first and it doesn't seem to sooth you at all.

All I can really say is this :: I was in your situation [only worse] and I had been with him for 5 years. We are lucky we didn't have kids yet, but honestly.. as much as I begged & begged him to work shit out & as much as the tables turned and he begged & begged me the same way..

it was the best thing ever for us to break up.
Finally I accepted the fact that, just because two people love eachother to death, doesn't mean that it's enough to save their relationship. Its a harsh fucking truth & I hate that now, you may have to accept that as well.. but tis' the way life is preciosa.

I know not knowing is the worst, but try your hardest not to over-analyze everything, because trust me, you'll make yourself go crazy and you'll start to believe your own imaginations.

[hugz you tightly]

you are beautiful & its not the end of the world baby..
you just have more time now to focus on YOU-
& I promise, promise, promise you that you'll come out feeling like you can conquer anything after this. ;)

[babiephat]

i understand everything you've told me. but how can people be so uncertain about each other all the time? i don't understand it. I can't say i know him back and front.. because i know that i don't anymore. people change. but still, how can you just hurt someone so bad after loving each other for so long? it's bizarre. Than, if you are with someone after this, how would you trust them? i wouldn't take anyone seriously anymore. that whole thing about being with someone forever is bullshit to me now. i want to accept it if he came back but now i know shit changes. I wouldn't know who to trust and who to believe. shit is just crazy.
sorry for the curses.
i love you and thanx for that. i sort of understand. there's just some things i need to know. and some things i need to change too.
<3