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I'm 22 now!
The day before my birthday I picked up Doug after he got off work and we went to my parents' house to have a family birthday dinner :) My grandparents were there and it was the first time he met them. It was really fun! I got wii remote chargers, gift cards for American Eagle, Target, and Michaels, two books, a check, a 4 month subscription to netflix, and my mom made me a gift certificate for new sheets and a new quilt she is going to make me! Yay!
On my actual birthday Lexie and I just hung out for most of the day. Shawnda came over and brought me a beautiful bouquet of flowers and a gift certificate for Shoetini in 5th Street. I've never been there but she was drooling all over everything she said, so I'm excited to go check it out! Then she left and Lexie and I put on very poofy dresses and picked Doug up and met Ely and Shawnda and Dayvid and even Hezekaiah at Roaring Rapids for pizza. It was delicious, and fun, but Doug started talking to Ely a bunch about things that no one else could really join in on, and basically didn't stop. I texted him and asked him if he would pay a little more attention to me and not Ely and he ignored it. Instead he just sat next to me, talked to Ely, and then kissed my shoulder when he felt he hadn't been paying enough attention to me. Yeah, that'll do it. Even Dayvid noticed, and he's never met either Doug or Ely before! Then Shawnda and Dayvid and Heze left and the rest of us were walking towards Camp Putt for a round of mini golf and Ely and Doug mentioned keeping score. I said that we weren't going to because both Lexie and I SUCK at mini golf and that doesn't make it any fun. They went on to say "oh well then WE'LL have to keep score." At this point I kinda lost my temper and said "No you won't! This is my birthday! It's not the Ely and Doug show! We are going to hang out as a GROUP!" and Doug basically didn't let me forget it for the rest of the night. ARG! He didn't even get me a birthday present! Well not yet anyways. At first he asked me what I wanted and I gave him a little boyfriend friendly list, and thought he might get something from there. But no. Instead, day of my birthday, he says he might just set aside some money and take me some place to buy whatever I want. A little disappointing. I would much prefer something he GOT me to something I picked out. It just goes to show you he doesn't really know me that well I guess.
Today though, we're going to the beach for the weekend. I figure he might buy me something there, because he keeps mentioning "oh well if there's a mall there we should go." I highly doubt there's a mall in Newport, it's a coast town after all, but I guess we'll see! Otherwise our plans are just going to the aquarium, watching movies, playing scrabble, and the usual beach stuff :) His mom works for Motel 6 so we get free rooms! It's pretty awesome.
I dunno, it seems selfish to be miffed at someone not buying you something. But it was my birthday. And we'd been dating less than a month when it was his birthday and I still got him exactly what he told me he wanted...
I am definitely caught in this limbo place. I keep going back and forth. I know I can get a little crazy with things I "need" because of things in past relationships. I know I need to get better with that in order to be in ANY relationship and have it be healthy. So sometimes when I'm in a situation and it's hard I can't tell if it's hard because I'm being crazy, or if it's hard because it's actually something I need that I'm not getting. It's really a process I need to go through by myself, but it does make it difficult in the meantime. But at the same time, I do know I need someone who can be there and support me, and put as much effort into our relationship as I do, and I don't know that I'm getting that from Doug. I've tried having a couple talks with him about it, but he doesn't ever really want to talk. I've asked him how he feels about me, what he wants from our relationship etc, and he doesn't ever really have answers. Should this be a red flag? I'm not sure yet. We've only been dating for 4 months, and there are a lot of things that still need to be figured out before I can make that decision I think. I mean, 4 months isn't really anything. And anyone who's been in any sort of long term relationship will tell you, this is when it starts getting real. You're done with the la-la-land happiness of the beginning of something new, and you're on to "how will this work in real life?". There's a balance, a give and take, for every relationship, and we are just starting to figure out those places.
For now I am just going to be excited about the fact that we're going to the beach this weekend! Yay!
The day before my birthday I picked up Doug after he got off work and we went to my parents' house to have a family birthday dinner :) My grandparents were there and it was the first time he met them. It was really fun! I got wii remote chargers, gift cards for American Eagle, Target, and Michaels, two books, a check, a 4 month subscription to netflix, and my mom made me a gift certificate for new sheets and a new quilt she is going to make me! Yay!
On my actual birthday Lexie and I just hung out for most of the day. Shawnda came over and brought me a beautiful bouquet of flowers and a gift certificate for Shoetini in 5th Street. I've never been there but she was drooling all over everything she said, so I'm excited to go check it out! Then she left and Lexie and I put on very poofy dresses and picked Doug up and met Ely and Shawnda and Dayvid and even Hezekaiah at Roaring Rapids for pizza. It was delicious, and fun, but Doug started talking to Ely a bunch about things that no one else could really join in on, and basically didn't stop. I texted him and asked him if he would pay a little more attention to me and not Ely and he ignored it. Instead he just sat next to me, talked to Ely, and then kissed my shoulder when he felt he hadn't been paying enough attention to me. Yeah, that'll do it. Even Dayvid noticed, and he's never met either Doug or Ely before! Then Shawnda and Dayvid and Heze left and the rest of us were walking towards Camp Putt for a round of mini golf and Ely and Doug mentioned keeping score. I said that we weren't going to because both Lexie and I SUCK at mini golf and that doesn't make it any fun. They went on to say "oh well then WE'LL have to keep score." At this point I kinda lost my temper and said "No you won't! This is my birthday! It's not the Ely and Doug show! We are going to hang out as a GROUP!" and Doug basically didn't let me forget it for the rest of the night. ARG! He didn't even get me a birthday present! Well not yet anyways. At first he asked me what I wanted and I gave him a little boyfriend friendly list, and thought he might get something from there. But no. Instead, day of my birthday, he says he might just set aside some money and take me some place to buy whatever I want. A little disappointing. I would much prefer something he GOT me to something I picked out. It just goes to show you he doesn't really know me that well I guess.
Today though, we're going to the beach for the weekend. I figure he might buy me something there, because he keeps mentioning "oh well if there's a mall there we should go." I highly doubt there's a mall in Newport, it's a coast town after all, but I guess we'll see! Otherwise our plans are just going to the aquarium, watching movies, playing scrabble, and the usual beach stuff :) His mom works for Motel 6 so we get free rooms! It's pretty awesome.
I dunno, it seems selfish to be miffed at someone not buying you something. But it was my birthday. And we'd been dating less than a month when it was his birthday and I still got him exactly what he told me he wanted...
I am definitely caught in this limbo place. I keep going back and forth. I know I can get a little crazy with things I "need" because of things in past relationships. I know I need to get better with that in order to be in ANY relationship and have it be healthy. So sometimes when I'm in a situation and it's hard I can't tell if it's hard because I'm being crazy, or if it's hard because it's actually something I need that I'm not getting. It's really a process I need to go through by myself, but it does make it difficult in the meantime. But at the same time, I do know I need someone who can be there and support me, and put as much effort into our relationship as I do, and I don't know that I'm getting that from Doug. I've tried having a couple talks with him about it, but he doesn't ever really want to talk. I've asked him how he feels about me, what he wants from our relationship etc, and he doesn't ever really have answers. Should this be a red flag? I'm not sure yet. We've only been dating for 4 months, and there are a lot of things that still need to be figured out before I can make that decision I think. I mean, 4 months isn't really anything. And anyone who's been in any sort of long term relationship will tell you, this is when it starts getting real. You're done with the la-la-land happiness of the beginning of something new, and you're on to "how will this work in real life?". There's a balance, a give and take, for every relationship, and we are just starting to figure out those places.
For now I am just going to be excited about the fact that we're going to the beach this weekend! Yay!