Freedom.
Downer You're alone
Illogical You will never be happy again
You'll never amount to anything
Weak Retarded Nobody likes you
You've lost Ugly Worthless
You shouldn't be feeling this way
You're losing it Fat Not Loveable
All these lies floating around
Trying so hard not to believe
Trying so hard to REMEMBER
Yet, failing...so hard.
There is no strength.
Glimpses of joy and hope.
Only to be replaced by exhaustion and despair.
"Trust in ME" You say
Why is it so hard?
It's so simple. yet. so complicated.
"Love ME" You say
I'm trying.
I wish I could
I wish I knew what it looked like
I'm trying to let go.
Why is it so painful?
Why does it hurt so much?
Maybe that's why it's called "growing pains"
Isn't there an easier way?
"Yes. TALK TO ME and REMEMBER."
I do talk. I try to remember.
"Then just RELY on Me."
Letting go. Catch me?
"Of course"
Thank you.
Thank you for loving me, even when I can't.
Thank you for being there for me, even when I don't want you.
Thank you for standing by my side, even when I push you away.
Thank you for not forsaking me.
Thank you for being bigger and better than anything I know.
Thank you.
Thank you for your Truth.
Thank you for your Peace.
Thank you for dying for ME.