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i'm a champion. the first night i go to evolution, 'the straight club', in Ages, and i manage to find a gay chick there. :-) yay for gay-dar? eh, she was easy to read.
yay for being single and having fun and this one Not being bi or a slut, in comparision to the other girls i usually find at twist. its a shocker really. should be fun.
oh but total boo for sabol getting booted out tonight. like, wtf? i really wanted to dance.:-( guess ill have to get all the dancing out of me tomorrow night - ill pass on selling shots againg. although, i saw jess, the gorgeous chick i worked with on saturday, and she made a shit load of money tonight. freakin 9 trays of shots?!?! are you kidding me?! thats absolutely insane. the most ive ever sold is 5, last weekend, before that it was 4. anyway, she apparently loves me and i love her and we're going to have a really good time selling shots together in the summer.
i missed my old life. i missed doing things for myself; going where i want and talking to anyone i want. i'm getting my old friends back, people who i was made to believe, of decieved myself into believing, weren't right in my life. it was as though i put myself above them and belittled their existence, like i was too good to even speak to them. but that isn't so. a lot of people i dropped as friends were so good to me and still arent bitter after how shitty i had treated them the past year. they show that they are concerned with what ive been doing with myself, making sure i'm doing well, and care for me. :-) it's nice to have people who care. it's nice to care for them too.
oh, by old life i don't mean the disgusting one everyone will tag me cliche in going back to. fuck that. i'm completely different now. its just the whole living life to the fullest, talking to everyone and going everywhere thing that i missed about my old life. the other aspects of my old life are foreign to me; im a different person now and its nice to look back and frown as though i barely knew that girl- i really barely knew myself.
anyway. i have a coffee date tomorrow, and then a friendly meeting for lunch perhaps with a dear old friend, and eventually dinner with the girls, and thennnn twist. whoa. i must throw dying my hair somewhere into that mix and ill feel immensely accomplished. wish me luck?
:-) its been so long since i've been so happy. not just simply today or the day before, or just for tomorrow, but in life in general these days. everything is looking up. sure, school still sucks, and i have to struggle trying to get hours at work, but my relationships with other people are so positive and really make me happy. :-) it's been since sarah that i've felt so secure with who i was and what i was doing with my life, yet clearly ive matured and im accomplishing a lot more for myself.
<3 Life <3
yay for being single and having fun and this one Not being bi or a slut, in comparision to the other girls i usually find at twist. its a shocker really. should be fun.
oh but total boo for sabol getting booted out tonight. like, wtf? i really wanted to dance.:-( guess ill have to get all the dancing out of me tomorrow night - ill pass on selling shots againg. although, i saw jess, the gorgeous chick i worked with on saturday, and she made a shit load of money tonight. freakin 9 trays of shots?!?! are you kidding me?! thats absolutely insane. the most ive ever sold is 5, last weekend, before that it was 4. anyway, she apparently loves me and i love her and we're going to have a really good time selling shots together in the summer.
i missed my old life. i missed doing things for myself; going where i want and talking to anyone i want. i'm getting my old friends back, people who i was made to believe, of decieved myself into believing, weren't right in my life. it was as though i put myself above them and belittled their existence, like i was too good to even speak to them. but that isn't so. a lot of people i dropped as friends were so good to me and still arent bitter after how shitty i had treated them the past year. they show that they are concerned with what ive been doing with myself, making sure i'm doing well, and care for me. :-) it's nice to have people who care. it's nice to care for them too.
oh, by old life i don't mean the disgusting one everyone will tag me cliche in going back to. fuck that. i'm completely different now. its just the whole living life to the fullest, talking to everyone and going everywhere thing that i missed about my old life. the other aspects of my old life are foreign to me; im a different person now and its nice to look back and frown as though i barely knew that girl- i really barely knew myself.
anyway. i have a coffee date tomorrow, and then a friendly meeting for lunch perhaps with a dear old friend, and eventually dinner with the girls, and thennnn twist. whoa. i must throw dying my hair somewhere into that mix and ill feel immensely accomplished. wish me luck?
:-) its been so long since i've been so happy. not just simply today or the day before, or just for tomorrow, but in life in general these days. everything is looking up. sure, school still sucks, and i have to struggle trying to get hours at work, but my relationships with other people are so positive and really make me happy. :-) it's been since sarah that i've felt so secure with who i was and what i was doing with my life, yet clearly ive matured and im accomplishing a lot more for myself.
<3 Life <3