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so i survived and succeeded.
i became weak though. too easily. i need to try not to. i guess it just Kills me more because you don't become weak too. or do you? probably late at night.
i don't know.
it has been fun though. i'm really glad. and i love those people; they're such a good time.
friday night i thought all my dreams were coming true. hah. i thought one of those stupidly hopefuly songs on the radio was playing in the background as i went there. but, no. i've been fooled. i allowed myself to believe that That is what my dreams has intended for me. but i honestly know that it's not.
i need to stop. i'm going to shut up.
had a good time this weekend. i'll never have exactly what i want, but at least things are looking up.
it's my first day of classes, the first one starting at 10 so i need to hope it's warm out and leave here at 930 for a nice stroll on 2nd avenue. if its cold, i guess i'll take the train with the millions of other people avoiding the cold and attempt to shove myself in before the doors close and i have to wait for another 1 or 2 more that aren't so full.
ugh.
good times.
i became weak though. too easily. i need to try not to. i guess it just Kills me more because you don't become weak too. or do you? probably late at night.
i don't know.
it has been fun though. i'm really glad. and i love those people; they're such a good time.
friday night i thought all my dreams were coming true. hah. i thought one of those stupidly hopefuly songs on the radio was playing in the background as i went there. but, no. i've been fooled. i allowed myself to believe that That is what my dreams has intended for me. but i honestly know that it's not.
i need to stop. i'm going to shut up.
had a good time this weekend. i'll never have exactly what i want, but at least things are looking up.
it's my first day of classes, the first one starting at 10 so i need to hope it's warm out and leave here at 930 for a nice stroll on 2nd avenue. if its cold, i guess i'll take the train with the millions of other people avoiding the cold and attempt to shove myself in before the doors close and i have to wait for another 1 or 2 more that aren't so full.
ugh.
good times.