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i forget what it felt like when you used to hold me.
there are so many pictures from my past. sarah, lyndsey, lauren, jenn, lindsey. so many. jenn is in almost all the albums. sarah used to be my world. the ones of lyndsey and i start from when we were like 12 and i just got my first camera, up until a little over a year ago, at least a picture for every year since. we all used to have such good times. i actually laughed out loud at so many of them. hah. the one of jenn and lyndz wearing my 'fetish' belt together. lmfao. sarah licking the sausage jenn burnt. golecki, lauren and i on halloween. things may be different, i may never see some of you again, but it's nice to know that the memories still make me smile, no matter how much i wish some of them didn't.
i should have stopped there though. hah. i'm such a fool.
anyway... i dropped my writ 102: ethics of war class and informed prof. biondi that i would only have her for one class this semester, which she of course thinks is fine because she personally knows how much i adore prof. conard.
i only saw melinda today briefly. :-( tomorrow we shall say our offical goodbyes after doing something completely awesome. not sure what yet.
i'm never really there, i just believe that i am. i'm wrong though, you know. hah. i barely even Exist.
did you know that Every song the fucking radio is about me? omfg. it's unbelieveable! i can't wait to get away from the radio for the next two months. what a relief that will be.
oh, and i'm down to 400 in my bank account. =-O fabulous. 200 on books, 75 on new bathing suits (stupid me), and at least another 100 on gas for the past month. greatttt. i'm reallly gonna need a job asap.
i thought i wanted to talk to you. but i think i'll be okay if i don't. hah great.
i miss having a girlfriend. i'm a relationship type. i like goofing around, and kisses, and hugs, and phone calls, and cute notes, and making love. ::sighs:: some day it shall happen again. hopefully it won't take TOO long. i'll go Crazy. the single life is surely not for me. only for a little bit, but now i'm done.
i'm pretty blank. i have no grip on reality. i'm just floating in and out of my own insanity i'm sure. haha. that's always good. but as long as i'm somewhat unaffected by most things, i'll be fine. emotionless. blank. yet satisfied. that'll do.
i'm rambling. off to bed. night night.
there are so many pictures from my past. sarah, lyndsey, lauren, jenn, lindsey. so many. jenn is in almost all the albums. sarah used to be my world. the ones of lyndsey and i start from when we were like 12 and i just got my first camera, up until a little over a year ago, at least a picture for every year since. we all used to have such good times. i actually laughed out loud at so many of them. hah. the one of jenn and lyndz wearing my 'fetish' belt together. lmfao. sarah licking the sausage jenn burnt. golecki, lauren and i on halloween. things may be different, i may never see some of you again, but it's nice to know that the memories still make me smile, no matter how much i wish some of them didn't.
i should have stopped there though. hah. i'm such a fool.
anyway... i dropped my writ 102: ethics of war class and informed prof. biondi that i would only have her for one class this semester, which she of course thinks is fine because she personally knows how much i adore prof. conard.
i only saw melinda today briefly. :-( tomorrow we shall say our offical goodbyes after doing something completely awesome. not sure what yet.
i'm never really there, i just believe that i am. i'm wrong though, you know. hah. i barely even Exist.
did you know that Every song the fucking radio is about me? omfg. it's unbelieveable! i can't wait to get away from the radio for the next two months. what a relief that will be.
oh, and i'm down to 400 in my bank account. =-O fabulous. 200 on books, 75 on new bathing suits (stupid me), and at least another 100 on gas for the past month. greatttt. i'm reallly gonna need a job asap.
i thought i wanted to talk to you. but i think i'll be okay if i don't. hah great.
i miss having a girlfriend. i'm a relationship type. i like goofing around, and kisses, and hugs, and phone calls, and cute notes, and making love. ::sighs:: some day it shall happen again. hopefully it won't take TOO long. i'll go Crazy. the single life is surely not for me. only for a little bit, but now i'm done.
i'm pretty blank. i have no grip on reality. i'm just floating in and out of my own insanity i'm sure. haha. that's always good. but as long as i'm somewhat unaffected by most things, i'll be fine. emotionless. blank. yet satisfied. that'll do.
i'm rambling. off to bed. night night.