Beaming positivity
Well back at work today and now that I am settled in my seat and getting stuck into a good pile of work Im not feeling as miserable as I thought I would. I would almost go as far as saying that I am enjoying being back at work more than I was on holidays as now I have something to focus on that blocks out those shitty voices in my head lol.
Workwise I am not taking things to seriously, and am not fussing too much about the future (otherwise I think I will honestly loose my shit with stress). They haven't advertised for a new receptionist yet and a few people upstairs are now saying they are not sure if they are anymore. Rather than freak out I have emailed my boss, just asking what the status of the receptionist role is and making a note of it that I am currently doing both roles and it is alot of stress for me. I think this is all I can do atm and all I really should do. It is not my job to run their affairs and if after a few months nothing has been sorted then yes it will be time to take further action. But for now what it is it is and it is only my first day back and I have wayyyy too much work to catch up on to worry about this stuff......staying positive!
In another positive note I should be receiving a delivery of love and happiness in about 10 days!
Completed my second ever order of goodies from Online Party Pills and am anxiously awaiting my goods. Purchased a 20pck of Diablos, 20pck of Hypnotic and am testing out a strain of legal, pseudo marijuana known as Kronic so have purchased a 3g packett of the tropical flavoured one. The monster packs of pills should keep me going for awhile and give me a good night out for whenever it is I hit the town with Sarah and the girls this month or the next.
Am keen to try the Kronic however. It has rave reveiws on the net as the top herbal smoke, lots of comments from frequent marijuana users saying it is like the real thing!
Brendon and I have agreed that as long as it doesn't smell like weed and he can't smell it on me then he doesn't mind me having it. Not to put all my eggs into one basket but if this stuff ends up being what it says this might be my answer for the weekends at home to staive off the boredom.
My problem is I get bored and don't feel like sitting at home, I get restless and want to go out yet have no idea where and who with to be honest can't afford to go out anyway.
Back in my teens my weekend thing used to be weed. I would smoke a few bongs at my exes house with our group and we would kick back, nom out on junk food and just enjoy lazy nights in. It was very rare we went out when we were stoned and if we did we always felt heaps para and frightened....made up appreciate coming back even more.
Im thinking if smoke abit of kronic on those nights then I'll want to stay home and actually enjoy feeling nice and mellow and snuggling up to Brendon. Suddenly the weekend at home won't be a disaster but be a nice relaxing night in.
Mmmm hotdogs tonight. Haven't made plain old hotdogs in awhile, have been reverting back to simpler meals, stuff I used to cook when I first moved out as Brendon plain and simply prefers it.
I like getting creative with meals but if he won't eat it then whats the point? I think I need to start having dinner parties with friends that way I still have nights when I can go all out and be creative. But when its just the two of us its probably not really worth it.
Aight well thats about it for the minute. 22 minutes and Brendon will be here to pick me up, I have given him the car this week as he has the week off to help his mum get all Joe's shit out of the house so he is playing chauffer for me this week, as I did for him during my hols. We desperately need a holiday alone together, I think we need to actually get away somewhere. I wouldn't mind a QLD trip again but then again i should finalise lis's wedding details before I go planning that. We still need to book accomodation I hope we haven't missed all the rooms at her reception venue.....mental note get onto this tonight!
Toodle ooo chickens!