Not good
I am literally loosing my shit!
I feel so alone yet the thought of being with people is exhausting and almost scary.
There are times where I don't feel I am worthy of anyone.
I don't want help and Im sick of people trying to help. I want to give up and let this thing win! Im done with fighting and trying!
The hatred and embarassment I feel for myself is deep now, I can't even look my own reflection in the eye.
Why do I have to feel this way I hate it!
Why can't I be normal?
The smallest things send me into a whirlwind of negative emotions these days and I generally end up depressed for at least 25 hours. After that I go through what I like to call my "depression hangover" where I feel guilt ridden for feeling negative about myself, my life and those around me. This in hand often sends me into another bout of negative emotions and self criticism.
I constantly chop and change my "solutions" and never really give anything a full chance to work out because if it isn't working quickly I can't be patient enough to see if it will work.
Suicidal thoughts are now a daily thing and they are getting stronger and stronger as I am left to ponder what the hell is wrong with my mind!
I feel so alone yet the thought of being with people is exhausting and almost scary.
There are times where I don't feel I am worthy of anyone.
I don't want help and Im sick of people trying to help. I want to give up and let this thing win! Im done with fighting and trying!
The hatred and embarassment I feel for myself is deep now, I can't even look my own reflection in the eye.
Why do I have to feel this way I hate it!
Why can't I be normal?
The smallest things send me into a whirlwind of negative emotions these days and I generally end up depressed for at least 25 hours. After that I go through what I like to call my "depression hangover" where I feel guilt ridden for feeling negative about myself, my life and those around me. This in hand often sends me into another bout of negative emotions and self criticism.
I constantly chop and change my "solutions" and never really give anything a full chance to work out because if it isn't working quickly I can't be patient enough to see if it will work.
Suicidal thoughts are now a daily thing and they are getting stronger and stronger as I am left to ponder what the hell is wrong with my mind!