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Wondering where I have been lately? I have been to myself, because some stuff has happened in my family recently, and I took it pretty hard. As you know my grandma died, and she was an amazing woman, and knowing that she wont be around anymore, torn me up inside. I am so confused right now with my life, and I just wish it could go back to the way it was months ago. Things just seemed happier then. I have even thought of taking a really long vacation. To where? I really have no fuckin clue. There is all this stuff that I want to do; but for some reason I end up not doing it. I haven't seen my friends in so long, and they probably think I have fallen off the face of the planet or something. I hardly talk to my family anymore, and most of the time it is my fault. I know I should talk to my family more... but I just don't.
Does anyone else see what time I am writing this? If you haven't noticed my clock says that it is 6:13 in the morning, and I haven't gone to sleep yet. Am I tried? Sorta. Can I actually sleep? No. I can't sleep, and you know why? I have all this fuckin shit going on in my head, and I just want to scream; b ut I don't. I want to stand in the middle of my living room, and just fucking scream my lungs off. I don't know why I want to do that... I just do.I think I am just going to go now, so bye.
Does anyone else see what time I am writing this? If you haven't noticed my clock says that it is 6:13 in the morning, and I haven't gone to sleep yet. Am I tried? Sorta. Can I actually sleep? No. I can't sleep, and you know why? I have all this fuckin shit going on in my head, and I just want to scream; b ut I don't. I want to stand in the middle of my living room, and just fucking scream my lungs off. I don't know why I want to do that... I just do.I think I am just going to go now, so bye.