ahhhhh fuck collegessss

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i really hate this whole class thing. and i hate requirements. i really want to take creative writing, symposium, tv age/vietnam, and drama next year and thats it. but nooooooo i have to take us history. so tired of us history. like soooo tired of it but you have to take another year of it. i cant stand learning about the revolutionary war one more time. ahhhhhhh and theres a ton of cp classes that are really interesting but they're cp and that will affect colleges a lot. which stinks cause they're really interesting but i wont get into georgetown (not that i will anyway but whatever i can dream)if i take cp classes. i hate this. i hate that this even matters cause i just want to take what i want to take and i hate that the levels affect it. arghhhhhhhhh i hate that we have to think about this. its almost scary. we're going to college in 2 years. thats so freaky. i dont know what i want to do with my life and i dont want to be deciding that now. i dont know if im going to like what i choose or if im going to hate it. i dont want to be making these decisions. i cant even decide what im going to wear to school tomorrow. i feel like there's so much more i want to experience from high school and its moving too fast. this years almost over and i dont even feel like its happened. a week is not that long of a time i've figured out and 2 years isnt either. it feels like a long time but its not. i feel like im being pushed out of high school and into college already and im not even halfway through. this is way to intimidating and overwhelming. i dont want to go to college. its too much to think about getting in and everything. and how am i going to do sports next year with all of these APs?? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

im crazy sore. my body is in so much pain from conditioning and we are always outside which is absolutely freezing. like crazy windy and i cant feel my legs cold. yesterday it was snowing...and 20 mph winds...and 20 degree weather...and running...and crab walks...and duck walks...and really painful ab thingys...and lunges...and agility drills...and it sucked a lot.

ahhh so im just basically bitching thorughout this whole entry but watevs. oo good thing! my sisters coming home for like a day and im seeing "shes the man" which will be fun. lopez hasnt been here the whole week and i've had basically no hw even thuogh i really do cause of history paper but i just dont feel like i do...im not stressed for once which is good....just in a lot of pain.