This just in, LJ is suffering from neglect
Ok, So with my pile of new blogs via blogger and this updating to facebook all the time.. well it's been left out of alot of posts I would other wise have placed here.
Anyway, people who actually view my LJ will get links to my actual other blogs to read those as well so in the end it should all work out.
Currently I am at work and drooling over coffee fumes, actualy I think I will go get a cup now.
I just droped off the kittens at Mizzy's and well I know they are in good hands and will like it there, I just wish I could have stayed longer. And I miss kittens T.T They are so cute, and it made me sad when I left and they ran towards the door. But it is for the best because Missy rocks at pet care, there litter will be changed! (Zane -_-) and they will be happy. Cleo was allready playing with Mizzy (the dog) it was so cute. But claire also looked sad when we left too, I guess she'll be missing the fur balls. Mizzy's appartment is pretty sweat and a billion degrees!!! >.> Sooo warm. Ick. :P
Other news things got really bad this last week and I was pretty down, but Friday made things look very up. I found out where karen had been disapearing to at lunch, got yearbooks o'sexiness and over all things may, may be getting better (fingers crossed). Actually so far the only real downer was kcam being sad and me having to do as little as possible because well I would undoubtably make it worst at this point. Thats what hurts, which surprises me.. I allways figured being alone or having no friends or alienation feelings or something would hurt more.. but nope it was the whole friend in need and you'd fuck it up or maybe it's even your fault their in need. Shot to the heart with that one. :sigh: But there was a smile and I guess time apprently does heal all things, although i'm still working on it.
A first ever, I spent the weekend alone in my house, with no computer, ALONE and didn't feel terribly shitty. Ok, a little bit. BUT!! I got lots done, sat outside read, did laundry baked and over all rather enjoyed myself. I even watched a movie alone. Mind you first I did try to call/contact anyone I could who had allready said they were busy and wouldn't falt out turn me down. No luck. So yeah.. I guess a little down about it, but house to myself, zane in small doeses and reading/reformating pc was ok. Of course.. I think that somehow an older versions of windows XP got installed... I think I forgot to remove the disk and switch to the other. Le sigh. I'll still have to work on that, same with the internet. Boo.
Another scary realisation.... um.. lats week of highschool ever (yay?!) and two final projects to start/finish for Thursday. EEP. Gotta get my ass in gear, fix the pc and find a way to pay for school next year, get my self outta this rut, be happy, make new friends, keep old ones, get in shape, find a way to and from work and maybe detox.
Odd, schools over for good soon.. and I'm going to miss it. Not the students so much, because well most of them I don't like and those I do are friends and friends are forever.. but I'm going to miss the teachers. Because well.. regardless of how close or firendly you are it will probobly still feel weird to hang out outside of school.
I also ordered grad photos 15.. I gotta find a way to divi em up.. and hoepfully get them before school ends.
So high school's over, I thought I'd be more excited or happier? I don't know. I am but I'm not, haha but when am I ever not.
Another lame hood old wounds still burn. Bitches.
I guess that's about all I wanna/need to say.