coming to a close
Yeah, so school is just about over. My last final is tomorrow and I technically don’t have to come to school after that. I‘m a junior, but all my classes are either AP which have been over since the tests last week or a year ahead (senior), so I don’t have to come back for underclassmen exams next week. I might drop in for a little while to finish up my piano lab pieces and check on grades, but that’s it....Awards day was yesterday. It was kinda lame. Mrs. Morris decided to give Gray the Strings Award this year because he hadn’t gotten it before and I‘ve gotten it for the past three years, but I think it’s because he went to All State and I didn’t.
It’s weird that it’s all over, especially since the seniors are leaving now. The worst part about it is that the ones that mean the most to me that are graduating, I’m not sure if they would even remember to miss me. It’s stupid to get attached to people anyway.
It’s really upsetting. I don’t think I’ll be able to go to music camp this summer. The camp I applied to in VT said on their website: “The festival provides financial assistance to students that cannot afford the full cost of tuition.” I assumed that if I didn’t get a substantial scholarship from Youth Orchestra, the camp would give me something. It didn’t really work out that way. With all the scholarship added together from both sources, I still have a $2,000 balance to be paid in the next month…and that’s just not going to happen. Then I have to pay for airfare too. I’m going to talk to some people to see if I can get anything else, but I really don’t think it will work out.
I know why they hardly gave me any money. I was expecting Dr. Rylands to write a decent letter of recommendation to make up for my crappy audition CD saying how hard I worked for her this year, how I’ve improved technically, (and how I put up with all her crap). She even knows teachers up there! But after I waited well past the deadline for her letter because she just decided not to write it, it was all of four sentences long saying practically NOTHING. Then because I didn’t have any new music ready in time to record for my audition, I had to use the live recording of my shitty concerto performance. I swear that thing will haunt me as long as I live. It was so terrible, they probably thought I hadn’t gotten any better since Killington.
Anyway, it’s over.
Even if I do manage go back to Vermont this summer, there are a few things I want to get done in the next few months:
1) lose 30 lbs. I’ve decided that boys are much more willing to be friends with girls that they are physically attracted to…and more attractive girls are generally smaller. Plus I’m tired of being chubby.
2) get a job. I applied to the Adventist grocery store in Collegedale today. That would work because I’d automatically have Sabbaths off.
3) find three more potential colleges. Right now I’m thinking about U of Tennessee, U of North Texas, and Rice Univ.
4) finish a few etudes a week so I’m mostly done with all 42 Kreutzer etudes by 2006.
argh
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