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This is an old entry...but the draft saved itself....surprisingly...
Today is just one of those days where I am just so pissed off at the world. I am working with people who are getting all the opportunities a person could ask for and they don't do shit. They make more than I do just off of social security checks alone and I really think most of them should be put in jail or locked in a mental facility. I can't stand the fact that so many people are giving them everything they could ask for and they just continue their cycle of causing problems in society. However, those of us who worked our way through school and busted our asses to get to where we are now, make less money than the bum on the street-whats the point of all our effort? I can honestly I'm glad I am self-sufficient and that the daily chalenges make me learn and grow. But sometimes I wish I could have the kind of help that one might need every now and then.
I am in a shitty mood in the fact that I feel my purpose on my planet shrinks more and more everyday. The people I share my life with rarely give a damn after a few short years, but I'm the sap that hangs onto those classic memories. I don't know what it is, why can't I just let go and stop caring about the trivial things in life. My family always reminds me that "true friends are few and far between," and everyday, I hope that the world cares more than that...am i just that niAIVE. Why do I keep hoping that there really is some good in this world. I get so happy to see any sign of altruism, but deep down, there are very rare people who do things for others just because. In most scenarios, people are helping people to reap the benefits from both parties and thats not what "altruism" is. It frustrates me to think that there are no people worth trusting on this god-forsaken planet. I just can't believe that people just suck, although I hear that being said almost everywhere I go. I feel that I should be doing something more important with my time and energy, but I just haven't figured out what that is yet. I want to create music and I want to help mold this imaginary world f goodness where gentle souls can hide. I want to have this amazing place where people can vacation away from the worthless unforgiving world and the pathetic souls therein. The people that literally suck the life out of you because they are jealous of that beam of light fueling you on through one obstacle and on to another...
I guess I just wish that there were more NICE people in the world. I wish that this life wasn't so corrupt and mutated.
I need to sing and write more, this is my start...
Another thing on my mind is really the people I have known; who just don't care anymore. There are people in my life who have made a great impact in my change or growth in this lifetime. There are people who have inspired me to be a better person and live with integrity in a bold colorful youth.
Today is just one of those days where I am just so pissed off at the world. I am working with people who are getting all the opportunities a person could ask for and they don't do shit. They make more than I do just off of social security checks alone and I really think most of them should be put in jail or locked in a mental facility. I can't stand the fact that so many people are giving them everything they could ask for and they just continue their cycle of causing problems in society. However, those of us who worked our way through school and busted our asses to get to where we are now, make less money than the bum on the street-whats the point of all our effort? I can honestly I'm glad I am self-sufficient and that the daily chalenges make me learn and grow. But sometimes I wish I could have the kind of help that one might need every now and then.
I am in a shitty mood in the fact that I feel my purpose on my planet shrinks more and more everyday. The people I share my life with rarely give a damn after a few short years, but I'm the sap that hangs onto those classic memories. I don't know what it is, why can't I just let go and stop caring about the trivial things in life. My family always reminds me that "true friends are few and far between," and everyday, I hope that the world cares more than that...am i just that niAIVE. Why do I keep hoping that there really is some good in this world. I get so happy to see any sign of altruism, but deep down, there are very rare people who do things for others just because. In most scenarios, people are helping people to reap the benefits from both parties and thats not what "altruism" is. It frustrates me to think that there are no people worth trusting on this god-forsaken planet. I just can't believe that people just suck, although I hear that being said almost everywhere I go. I feel that I should be doing something more important with my time and energy, but I just haven't figured out what that is yet. I want to create music and I want to help mold this imaginary world f goodness where gentle souls can hide. I want to have this amazing place where people can vacation away from the worthless unforgiving world and the pathetic souls therein. The people that literally suck the life out of you because they are jealous of that beam of light fueling you on through one obstacle and on to another...
I guess I just wish that there were more NICE people in the world. I wish that this life wasn't so corrupt and mutated.
I need to sing and write more, this is my start...
Another thing on my mind is really the people I have known; who just don't care anymore. There are people in my life who have made a great impact in my change or growth in this lifetime. There are people who have inspired me to be a better person and live with integrity in a bold colorful youth.