im descending into total madness..

[aznwhiteboi]

ok what the hell is all this bullshit...someone PLEASE TELL ME!!! i heard that song 3 times today its...everywhere i go. why is it that i cant escape from myself..there is always something to remind me, there is something there. it wasnt meant to be...it was never meant to be, but why does it always bug me? i am confused, we are both apparently trying to move on with our lives but something keeps us anchored to this spot. i dont know what it is, i can just leave and cut off everything but it just isnt possible..something jsut isnt right. its so fuking confusing cus i dotn even kno wtf to do. ok tyler get ure shit str8..the guy has a gf..he told u hes trying to move on..sign? yea ok. but i can taste him, feel him, hold him, love him, all the memories just come back to me whenever he tells me he loves me. i hate it when he tells me he loves me. he doesnt love me anymore!!! hes not suppose to..he loves his gf so just stop saying it to me. i dotn want to hear it, those words are just too hard to handle. how am i suppose to becoem a new person and forget about u when you say those thigns to me. i cant get over u that way..its just so hard. grrrr i love him so much that i hate him and love him at the same time..its completely ridiculus its like an addiction that i can get over but the fact that its there makes me want to reach out and hold on. i wouldve given him everything..if i had a chance. what is it about him thats so irresistable, like peaches and cream..so good hahahha. gahh..o well live with it, hes got a gf woopdeedoo love her thanks. and love her right, and perhaps one day, if it was meant to be..fate will bring us back together. that is..if i dont push him away (again) =\

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