FUCKED
i had the most interesting night yesterday. someone imed me and changed my life forever, i cant believe it, everything seems different as of today. i realize what a dick some people TRULY ARE!!!! give me back the inexperience, give me back my faith, give me back trust, give me back my heart even if it is broken in a million pieces. just give it all back to me, all this time... i wotn be fooled again, its done its over...goodbye. u just lost me..u lost me..forever, have a nice life. i was blind yesterday but i can see now. how could u treat me this way when all i did was love you, love you with everything i had. its over now. i saw the truth and its over..thank god she opened my eyes for than i would be walking in teh darkness. thank you. ure like addiction but i learn to break away from you. im lost...u just lost it all. find someone that will love you the way i did, sacrifice for you the way i did, tried for you the way i did, died for u the way i did.
besides from all of that drama...jebus. so how was my day? allright i guess. i told louis everything and he was liiike...WTF @ that. ppl who break other ppls hearts and lie to me about it is just a bunch of crap, im gonna be free now..woohoo ok, but other than that shit, i had to go with jorel to practice but i ended up with a fucking cramp on my leg!!! fuck! louis was jabbing his finger on to my calves and i had to wrestle him off..it fuckign hurts aiight? i was limping hte whole tiem and didnt get a chance to finish the dance that jorel choreographed. fuck lol its good to be back, o yea...i signed up at ballys again amnd guess what? i got my personal trainer back!! lee, o yah, well he was looking me up and down and was like...wtf man what happened since the last time i saw you? lol well hes putitng me on a strict protein diet...i had to drink ensure plus *tastes like shit lemme tell ya, but hey its good for youre skin, and complexion*, im eating more fish, high protein stuff lol. also working out more now, lifting and running, it feels so good to be on the rail again, jebus. im also taking kickboxing, with yoga and the hrkron meditation of the soul. im also suppose to sleep around 9 30 now.. o shit. hw, and yup, lookin forward to a great summer. that and baek and me are taking college classes at evergreen this sumer, im excited..dorms? o yeah! ok kids im heading out ttyl.
besides from all of that drama...jebus. so how was my day? allright i guess. i told louis everything and he was liiike...WTF @ that. ppl who break other ppls hearts and lie to me about it is just a bunch of crap, im gonna be free now..woohoo ok, but other than that shit, i had to go with jorel to practice but i ended up with a fucking cramp on my leg!!! fuck! louis was jabbing his finger on to my calves and i had to wrestle him off..it fuckign hurts aiight? i was limping hte whole tiem and didnt get a chance to finish the dance that jorel choreographed. fuck lol its good to be back, o yea...i signed up at ballys again amnd guess what? i got my personal trainer back!! lee, o yah, well he was looking me up and down and was like...wtf man what happened since the last time i saw you? lol well hes putitng me on a strict protein diet...i had to drink ensure plus *tastes like shit lemme tell ya, but hey its good for youre skin, and complexion*, im eating more fish, high protein stuff lol. also working out more now, lifting and running, it feels so good to be on the rail again, jebus. im also taking kickboxing, with yoga and the hrkron meditation of the soul. im also suppose to sleep around 9 30 now.. o shit. hw, and yup, lookin forward to a great summer. that and baek and me are taking college classes at evergreen this sumer, im excited..dorms? o yeah! ok kids im heading out ttyl.