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ah ha!
i finally noticed what i need to do. I have finally noticed that i cant make myself happy. I know i cannot make myself happy anymore. My whole entire life, i was just trying to make myself happy. Many people along the way definitely made me the happiest man alive. But I was never able to make myself happy, i have never smiled or felt proud of myself for doing something by myself. I feel so stupid, but sadly... I finally understand that i could never make myself happy. So whats my purpose in my life now? To make others happy of course. Making other people truly happy inside, will atleast let me move on i guess. I wont be able to truly smile, laugh, enjoy my life, but atleast knowing that i can make others do that will.
For Maria, we are stop talking. This should atleast give us both time to get our heads straight and think about things. Its atleast I can do... and if we dont talk anymore, then take care of yourself and good luck.
For Matt, dont worry bro you are almost outta there. Few more days and i could possibly come visit to you. So just hang in there.
For everybody else who cared, yeah i will show a smile here and there, just to show you that im ok. But Im just going to warn u that it might be a fake smile.
Theres only one person i cant make happy, you know who you are. You are a psycho bitch, you basically ruined my relationship with me and her, and you are obsessed about me. But you know? I totally moved on from you, it had to be the greatest decision in my life, Im sorry if i ever gave u false hope but you need to move on as well, since you do have a boyfriend anyways.
i finally noticed what i need to do. I have finally noticed that i cant make myself happy. I know i cannot make myself happy anymore. My whole entire life, i was just trying to make myself happy. Many people along the way definitely made me the happiest man alive. But I was never able to make myself happy, i have never smiled or felt proud of myself for doing something by myself. I feel so stupid, but sadly... I finally understand that i could never make myself happy. So whats my purpose in my life now? To make others happy of course. Making other people truly happy inside, will atleast let me move on i guess. I wont be able to truly smile, laugh, enjoy my life, but atleast knowing that i can make others do that will.
For Maria, we are stop talking. This should atleast give us both time to get our heads straight and think about things. Its atleast I can do... and if we dont talk anymore, then take care of yourself and good luck.
For Matt, dont worry bro you are almost outta there. Few more days and i could possibly come visit to you. So just hang in there.
For everybody else who cared, yeah i will show a smile here and there, just to show you that im ok. But Im just going to warn u that it might be a fake smile.
Theres only one person i cant make happy, you know who you are. You are a psycho bitch, you basically ruined my relationship with me and her, and you are obsessed about me. But you know? I totally moved on from you, it had to be the greatest decision in my life, Im sorry if i ever gave u false hope but you need to move on as well, since you do have a boyfriend anyways.