Summer.
So things with Izzy are ok now. I don't really understand how or why they are, but they are. He went back home for like 3ish days, to go to a friends birthday party and to have another one for himself with his friends there. I'm not so stressed anymore now that I said what I wanted to say, but I think going forward things might be a little sensitive and complicated. Due to the frustration and stress and all of that I've been masturbating a lot, but my libido is actually really low and I find it rather annoying. I think I've been trying really hard to change him, even though deep down I know I can't. It just shouldn't be so frustrating and difficult. I feel like things are supposed to be easy and happy and fun. Not difficult and having a stupid little fight like every week or twice a week. I'm not sure if I understand what's wrong but I think I have a good idea.