Venty Vent
Hey. Just wanted to try updating again instead of doing it in another month. So far today was ok, it would have been better if my mother had commented as a fact of how I'm supposedly getting bigger. Yeah as if I don't see myself in the mirror nearly everyday when I go to do my business. Right now I'm not annoyed or angry or anything like that but what made it annoying was when I said that comments like that were one of the reasons why I became a emotional eater from feeling as if I wasn't perfect simply because of how my body looked. And of course mom decides to act like I'm just blaming her for it despite the fact that that wasn't what I was doing and she's always acting as if I make excuses about everything despite the fact that more than half of those times I am simply telling the truth of the matter. So she starts calling me manipulative when I was saying something along the lines of her not needing to always comment on something like that. Why do people find it ok to just comment on something that is considered insensitive to the person that they are talking to? Like what do you expect for them to not feel like crap or whatever when you tell them something that they already know?
*sigh*
It has been really annoying and sometimes sad these past few months because of all kinds of things. And to best honest, I hate talking to my mother because it seems as if she never wants to hear my opinion or side of the story and acts as if what I say is stupid or immature when it's not. Excuse me for not always being a kiss ass and agreeing with everything that you tell me. I'm no one's doll and I'm no one's puppet. It just frustrates me to no end. I just needed to get this out because I tend to bottle things up a lot and then when something happens I tend to explode at times because it just annoys me so much that it seems like I have to walk on egg shells with people. The only person that I don't have to do this with is my father who is the most trustworthy person in my life. He's honestly the only one that keeps me going especially when I feel as if I am a failure with everything.
*sigh* I kind of feel a little better now writing is an amazing thing it helps to get out all of your frustrations.
Hopefully I'll post again soon.
*sigh*
It has been really annoying and sometimes sad these past few months because of all kinds of things. And to best honest, I hate talking to my mother because it seems as if she never wants to hear my opinion or side of the story and acts as if what I say is stupid or immature when it's not. Excuse me for not always being a kiss ass and agreeing with everything that you tell me. I'm no one's doll and I'm no one's puppet. It just frustrates me to no end. I just needed to get this out because I tend to bottle things up a lot and then when something happens I tend to explode at times because it just annoys me so much that it seems like I have to walk on egg shells with people. The only person that I don't have to do this with is my father who is the most trustworthy person in my life. He's honestly the only one that keeps me going especially when I feel as if I am a failure with everything.
*sigh* I kind of feel a little better now writing is an amazing thing it helps to get out all of your frustrations.
Hopefully I'll post again soon.