Thoughts
Really not sure of what to write for today. I feel awful about what happened in Japan. ;-; I wish that there was something that I could do to help out besides praying, but I guess it's enough. (Even though I sometimes don't think that it is) Any way, nothing much to report as usual. My dad went to the doctor to get his blood tested and everything came out good but they with held the last blood pack (?) which was about his thyroid (which had to be removed) Oh yeah, turns out the reason why my dad has been having problems with forgetting things and feeling sick all the time was because his doctor hadn't given him all the medicine that he needs to get better. That is seriously bad for my dad, he could die at any time because of his medicine which is supposed to help him but ironically it could cause him to die. I swear if my dad dies because of his doctor's neglectful butt I am going to seriously sue him. I've been very worried about my dad for months now and I know that I'm supposed to pray instead of worrying about it but I can't help it. I'm trying my best not to worry and let God have his way but I pray everyday that he'll allow my father to continue living a long life. My feelings about him being sick have been held in for way too long. I always do this to myself, its like I'm doing it on purpose to make myself feel bad. Also, I've finished a few of the things that I'm supposed to do before I officially start my college classes. But I still don't have my temps ( or a car) yet plus I'm worried that I won't be able to do everything because it turns out I have to pay $79 dollars for my first semester there and I don't have the money.
I mean when can I use my financial aid money? Aren't they supposed to send it to me? I'm not all that sure I still need to do more research on that stuff since this is my first time dealing with all this college stuff. Mostly I want to be financially independent so my parents won't have to pay, I might change my mind and decide to just wait until I have a job before I go to college. I really don't want to but it's one of my only options. Unless I decide to go to online college which would be better since I have experience in doing school work online. *sigh* I'm still not sure.
I mean when can I use my financial aid money? Aren't they supposed to send it to me? I'm not all that sure I still need to do more research on that stuff since this is my first time dealing with all this college stuff. Mostly I want to be financially independent so my parents won't have to pay, I might change my mind and decide to just wait until I have a job before I go to college. I really don't want to but it's one of my only options. Unless I decide to go to online college which would be better since I have experience in doing school work online. *sigh* I'm still not sure.