What did one snowman say to the other snowman?

[azalea_pearl]

Haven't updated in here for a very long time ... stupid myspace is so addicting. The allure is finally starting to wear off. Not too much has been happening for me. Just working, playing with Lola, hanging out with Seth, or reading. I'm being pretty damn predictable lately. I'm stuck in a homebody routine and can't seem to get myself out of it.

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[azalea_pearl]

I wasn't complaining about not having friends... just the fact that I don't feel a draw to go out and persue tons of friendships. I'm not a social butterfly like I used to be, and I'm strangely okay with that. And yes, Leslie is at the top of my friends list for good reasons. She's the only person besides my mom that'd I'd willingly take a bullet for. She's been there for me in more ways than you can imagine. So it doesn't bother me if multiple people look down on this "over-the-top" friendship. I'm still the same person. The way I act now is no different than me a few years ago, it's a much happier Andrea but still the same me. Leslie has influenced my life, but in no way negatively.

Also, when you were visiting I'm sorry but the one night Leslie had some personal problems and I needed to be there for her. I wasn't going to abandon her when she needed me. I told you she was having some problems and I had to be there for her so yes I was with Leslie. Sorry if I couldn't give you exact details, but I wouldn't tell Leslie's problems to the world. The other time you wanted to drink and party I really did have to get up really early for work the next morning. I never drink or anything if I have work the next day. It didn't help either that I was working a six day work week when you were visiting. I was sad that we never got to hang out just me and you. I mean I love Anna too, but I'm a one-on-one type person. Even when we went to the movies we had Jacob with us, which don't get me wrong I like him too - but you know what I mean. It was never just us. ever.

Seriously though Sam, we haven't been close since you and Richie happened. Something broke between us and it's never been the same since. Still friends yes, but it's not the same; I'm sure you feel it as well.

Me having depression - that is an absolute in my life. I do have long periods where I don't feel depresseed at all, but still depression never really leaves a person. It's a life long battle. It'd be different if it was situational depression, where it would fix itself once the situation resolved. That's not my case though. I don't understand why you'd think I could just will it away. This isn't something of mind of matter.

I'm not sure if Seth and I will work out in the long run, but I'm having a wonderful time now. He's just very, very clingy and that gets to me. I don't like being called every couple of hours or talking on the phone just for the sake of talking with no purpose. I get smothered, I would be content to see him once or twice a week but he doesn't like that - so if something happens I think it'll be because I'm feeling too smothered. Hope not, but that's what would probably end it for me.