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i hate work and i don't want to go, but it keeps me busy. and what i need now is busy.
and yes, money.
i've been spending money to make up for this. i shouldn't be. but i just keep telling myself i can buy that outfit or that bra--i don't have to travel back and forth to boston for a year anymore.
i even bought lipstick. and a little bandeau bra with polka dots. she wouldn't have cared. which is precisely why i bought them.
but i'm trying this on for size, too: so what? so what.
and yes, money.
i've been spending money to make up for this. i shouldn't be. but i just keep telling myself i can buy that outfit or that bra--i don't have to travel back and forth to boston for a year anymore.
i even bought lipstick. and a little bandeau bra with polka dots. she wouldn't have cared. which is precisely why i bought them.
but i'm trying this on for size, too: so what? so what.