life should go on 2 !
Life is much more better now days. Im working with japanese company, new environment, better salary and good people around me. Ain and Jasmin having good time in life too. My mother being great by not causing more trouble.
Everything seems so perfect. Whenever people sees us, they got surprise on how close we are. But somehow things change between us. We can only be close in front of people.
Its not genuine anymore. but its not fake either. That just who we are now.
I'm keep on wondering, what have change between us ? Am i the one who change here?
No matter how lonely i become, i always thought i have my sisters, to share the feeling, to depends on. like a good close friend. But lately, i don't feel the same. i become more lonely and ALONE. i cannot voice up my thinking and its get worse day by day. i know, they have more things in life to take care of then spend time with me. its just me, who feel left out all the time. being outcast is not new thing for me, but when my family doing the same to me, ITS HURT.i know they love me. they just buzy...
It would be better if i have someone to share the feeling,listen to me when im talking, care about me. to love me. pick a fight with me. i wish i have. but .. i guess im not that lucky.
Everything seems so perfect. Whenever people sees us, they got surprise on how close we are. But somehow things change between us. We can only be close in front of people.
Its not genuine anymore. but its not fake either. That just who we are now.
I'm keep on wondering, what have change between us ? Am i the one who change here?
No matter how lonely i become, i always thought i have my sisters, to share the feeling, to depends on. like a good close friend. But lately, i don't feel the same. i become more lonely and ALONE. i cannot voice up my thinking and its get worse day by day. i know, they have more things in life to take care of then spend time with me. its just me, who feel left out all the time. being outcast is not new thing for me, but when my family doing the same to me, ITS HURT.i know they love me. they just buzy...
It would be better if i have someone to share the feeling,listen to me when im talking, care about me. to love me. pick a fight with me. i wish i have. but .. i guess im not that lucky.